why is everyone let their anger out to me my mom just mad at me for no reason my brother hate me until my mom blame me for it every thing that i say my mom just mad at me it was happen today we were about to eat dinner my mom ask me to scoop the rice and i did then my mom yell said to scoop the rice and i say i already did then my scold me saying that i talk back toward her but i didn't in my family my mom just favour my older sister my older brother and my younger brother i feel so left out i have no one to talk about my feeling so i just write in my diary or even at here i think my parents hate me when they yell at me i just go to my room or even bathroom and cry sometimes when i think about what's my fault it doen't show coz i didn't do anything wrong there's time i want to end my life but i don't have courage to do it coz i'm a muslim if i kill myself i probably go to hell my friends always try to blame me if i do a single mistake i feel like a hundered gun and knife stab toward me because of their yelling and scold i was been bully since kindergarten even i tell my teacher or my parents they just say its probably your fault but i didn't do anything i remember in my middle school life i was waiting for my van school with my friends my van came at 2:30 evening when its was about time the van to come my friends suddenly ask go to store to buy some to-up for her but i say that they was about to come then say its not like you about to die if then van leave you so i end but for her..... i need someone to listen to my problem but nobody want to listen to it how about you guys please help me give some courage word and comfort me please i desperet need shoulder to lean