ugh...

So this is going to be a big rant I just need to write down because I feel so awful with myself now I just want to hit me in the face... with a chair.

Just a few minutes ago I was brave enough to call my boss and tell her I want to talk with her. I am really unhappy with the situation in my workplace right now, it's killing me to spend there every single second so I kept thinking and thinking about quitting. There were a few things I didn't like about my job, like working from morning till everning, having to deal with my boss' bad mood (whoever got scolded just because the person they work for happened to have a bad day will understand...) or even a small pay... As I'm writing it down, I don't even know why I still work there lol.

Anyways, I gathered the courage to finally say what I have in mind but the moment I went to her office and we talked, I didn't say any of these things in my head. Therefore, I still work there and nothing really changed... Like seriously, what's wrong with me?! Now I get why people grlorify all these other people who quit their jobs cuz you really need balls for that. Especially if you live in different country and quitting would mean you have to quickly come up with something or you will end up on the street with other hobos.

So yeah, I'm a coward, a big one... I don't even know why I had to write it down xD

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nad1411 #1 Nov 28, 2014 16:48:19

Everything happen for a reason. There must be something thay still hold you at the place. Or it is just a test for you to remind you that you a strong person. And later when u face any challenge in the future u just could pass it as u are strong. But i believe at the end of storm there are always a rainbow :) something good will happen to you.

joytotheworld16 #2 Nov 28, 2014 16:05:05

I'm sorry to hear about your work situation :( Don't beat yourself up over it, it really is hard to quit your job like that. I'm sure if you do your best to get up the courage and try again, everything will work out in the end :)

Silencedshadow #3 Nov 28, 2014 14:21:36

The good thing out of all this is that there will be other chances for you to do it later on. It's way better than saying you want to quit and then regret it. Now that would make you want to hit yourself in the face with a chair. ;)
I'm sure that by next time you'll gather the courage you need and say what you want to say. So don't be too hard on yourself. Being scared of what you'll going to do once you quit is only natural. So don't pressure yourself. :)