Hello all that will read this,

I've noticed I've been getting a lot of new subscribers, while I haven't been doing anything. I am happy to know my stories still entertain people, it makes me determined to start up writing again. Unfortunately the only writing I am doing lately are essays and the occasional RP-reply.

I have had a year of college already, last year. And it was utterly discouraging. My teachers didn't support me and my chronical illness acted up a lot. Due to this experience I did know I had to do my best this year in another way like I did last year. As I studied and studied in vain. My first exam period was utterly crushing. We had only 3 exams and I studied 18 days intensively, failing them all. For the record I was going for Teacher Secondary School: Latin-Arts. Eventually I was so strained that the doctors and psychiatrist kept me home.

This year I didn't have too much trouble, yet. I had this fantastic period, feeling great. Then the last couple of weeks I had been in such pain I can't even put it into words. But that's over now. I am still not feeling that good, physical actions are still hard. 

But the point is, another school and going for English-History, didn't change the fact that college is very heavy. My school may be closer, just means I'll be less tired from the trip. But this school teaches up until 6PM instead of 4PM, which is tiring on its own. I've been packed with so much homework that it's wearing me out. We're not getting any breathers either. Oh and next vacation will be fully used to study for exams, as the school wants.

I am just so sad that I have all this work. I can't draw, I can't write stories and I can't even just relax. I just wished they would stop giving us these assignments. Mind you, half of it isn't even for points. And half of those have to be made other wise you get -1 or -2 on your up to 20 mark on your exams. 

It's just stupid and hard. I just want some freetime. Other people seem like they're dancing through it all, but they aren't ill 24/7. 

And basically my substitute teacher English said none of us were going to make next semester. A+ motivator -_- At the end of his "speech" I just felt like crying. It's not that I don't want to study, it's just that I don't have time. My teacher basically said we had to study a little every day. I absolutely can't. My brain can't handle it either. And certainly this week as I didn't sleep for 4 nights (maybe a few hours here or there). 

I know my English isn't perfect, I am sure you notice, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to go on and get into the following semester. And history is not a walk in the park either. I should be reading books for it in my "free time". What free time? x-x

Anyway what I want to say is that you won't be getting any story from my side yet. I am also not sure if I should continue revamping 'Imitator'. I still like the story and I hate to see so many faults, but it's just like... I've written it more than a year ago or something. And I just ... If I want to give you something, it would be something new. 

Thing is! I never was very into fanfiction and I am not to this day. I rather present you original stories, but I thought we should be posting them on fanficoverflow, but you see AFF went through 2 major lay-out revamps in a short time and fanficoverflow hasn't seen both of them. I wonder what the deal is? I like fanficoverflow just as much as AFF. 

I don't know. Maybe I should put my original stories up here as well. But what if they have nothing to do with Asia? Then they don't suit right? And aren't unsuitable stories getting removed? I am so torn.

I don't specifically write about Asia, I am not really obsessed. But I do notice people on AFF want to see fanfics mostly on Korean boysbands (probably because of AFF's history). It's also for that reason that I went rebelling and put up a story about a Japanese Oshare Kei band (SuG). I don't really like to be put in something restraining though rules are needed. I keep to the rules, but I hate it when people expect something and then I begin rebelling, in a way that I am still respecting the rules.

Anyway, I just wanted to give you all a heads up about what's going on. And just to tell you that you won't be seeing any stories soon. Let's hope next semester will be calmer.

I hope you have a lovely day. Please, do enjoy your holidays. 

Yours sincerely,

TheDormouse