So for the past two weeks I have been slightly conflicted with myself and as much as I would like to blame my friend, I can't because it is me who is starting this fight with myself. I don't know if it's a good idea to share it but I will drop a hint and it includes lots of inner turmoil. As of right now, all of my problems are centred towards myself or rather my thoughts and it had landed me in a small fight with my friend. Actually it's just me being passive aggressive towards his questions. 

But bottom line, I am feeling quite down and that has been interfering with my work, academically and uh, not academically hahaha. And I feel that it would help me if I can write about it in a sort of blog so yes, I am venting in a less aggressive why. 

So it had been going on since October and that is what bothers me the most because it is affecting my personal life quite quickly. My friend does not completely understand my problem because he had never actually done it and he said it's still early so I can still stop. The thing is I don't understand what he means by and it gets harder because I can't explain how I feel towards my problem. But I feel even worse whenever he says it's easy to stop and just stop because it's not worth it so yeah. During the past few weeks I've been moping around and lightly arguing with my friend due to lack of communication. And I think that I'm more comfortable sharing my concerns to this community instead of talking it out with my friend. 

But I do think it is best to stop before it escalates and uh, the sooner the better? 

I do not know what this whole topic of this blog is steering towards but yeah, just a little cry for help and advice? :)