How strong are your feels?

This is the saddest monologue I have ever heard.

“How do parents go on when they lose a child? You know, when I would see that stuff on the news, I’d shut it off ’cause it was just too horrible to think, but I would always think: how do they wake up every day? I mean, how do they breathe, honey? But you do wake up. And for just a second, you forget. And then, oh, you remember. And it’s like getting that call again and again, every time. You don’t get to stop waking up. You have to keep on being a parent even though you don’t get to have a child anymore.”

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Taemintatee #1 Nov 23, 2014 14:08:46

can this be a fic inspiration

Silivia #2 Nov 20, 2014 18:45:34

I wanna cry

timelessnotes #3 Nov 20, 2014 08:47:16

I....... feel the overwhelming need to write angst bc of this

parkINaByun #4 Nov 19, 2014 15:05:02

I just recently lost my brother on August 2... 10 days before he turned 30 and going through that is hard for myself... But seeing my parents go through that was the most heart breaking thing I have ever had to witness. It hurts... Just a couple of days ago, we went to my sister's house (my brother lived and died there) to clean out his room. As Asians, we do this thing where almost everything is based off od 100 days. And my brother's 100th death day was on November 10th and my mom didn't want to clean his room until then. So we got to My sister's house late friday.. Around midnight. I got there before my parents did but I didn't get to talk to them bc I had already went to bed... I was tired after that 4.5 hour drive. On Saturday afternoon while my mom was cooking... I was sitting st the counter while she was cooking and she just all of a sudden said "all of his stuff is still there... I walked into his room and everything is still the same... Except his body isn't there.... I'm so sad..." And she turned back to the stove but before she did I saw her face and it broke my heart so bad. It hurts so much seeing my mom deal with this... She doesn't express herself and she always keep all of her emotions to herself.... It hurts me bc I can't do anything for her bc I don't know what it's like to lose a child. Losing a brother is one thing but losing a child is a whole different thing.

When my brother first passed away, my mom barely talked.... She was like that for almost two months... She's getting better not but I know it will be a very long time from now before things get better...

But that monologue just got me... It hits home to me on a sister level...