I swear Im going to delete this blog soon....lol

Hi! Its my Aff Birthday today!

I know probably no one will read this but I felt like I needed to make something special on this day.

So I decided to talk about why I entered this website and why I started writing.

Since I was little I liked to write. I never showed it to anyone and i've never wrote anything whorth showing either.

Reading was always my escape from reality and I was a bookworm all my life. Im proud of saying that. I meet so many stories that changed my life (Lord of the Rings), made me get closer to others (Harry Potter) or simply helped me on hard times (Marley and Me). Some stories were real, some weren't, but all of them were read as if they truly happened and those characters existed somewhere in another world and time.

I cant say I dreamed about writing a book someday but I can say I dreamed about living surrounded by stories and books.

I started to read fanfiction when I found out about them, during my Lord of the Rings crazy passion. It's still my favorite books even though I dont dare to reread them. lol

I was young back then, I probably had like 13 years and I stole my brothers books since he said they were great (we are both nerds but still he has the looks and the brains).

After it I read a lot of fantasy books and romances. Harry Potter showed up when I was on my last year of Middle School. No one liked it beside my friend who was also a nerd like me. There werent any movies or fancy book covers and praticaly no one ever heard about the boy who survived. I did and I loved every moment of it. Every time I knew about a book coming out I would buy it imediately. At college I meet two great friends who also were Potter Fans. The movies were coming out by that time and I already reread the books too many times to count. 

When the last book came out my friend bought the english version. We were too eager to wait for the translated one and once she finished she lended it to me. I can never forget that night when I finished it. It was magic....I cried...and I realised how much I would miss those characters and that story. 

I think the author once said she also cried when she finished it. Now I understand her. She created someone and a world that she will have to say goodbye to.

Thats what I go through every time I finish a story. I dont want to say goodbye to them...They are a part of me! They are my escape from reality.

Thats what writing is to me.

Last year I decided to make an acount on Asian Fanfictions because I was using it for several years, ever since I found out about SHINee.

The stories I read deserved a comment, being subscribed and upvoted. They lost hours of their lives to write something to make me happy, cry, dream...Cant I take a few minutes to encourage them?

So I did it. I was unemployed and I had plenty of time to go around and find new stories.

That summer I tried something new. I started to write a fanfiction about SHINee, the famous school fic I often talk about. 

I wasnt happy with it but it wasnt that bad either.I wasnt self confidente enough to publish it. And I'll never be. Every time I post something I tremble thinking about what people whould think and say....its me...cant help it!

Then something happened that year. I decided to write a couple drabbles with Onew. Romantic, fluffy, boring ones. They were so cute I wanted to share them with everyone. So on December 11 I posted my first chapter with super, and even worse english that I have right now. I decided I would post it and then disapear of aff when people started to make fun of me. 

However it didnt happen. I had some positive comments and some very nice and sweet people encouraged me to keep going.

Its almost one year after I started writing. I wrote several stories and I made up some characters, but none can compare to Dating an Idol and my Lillie.

Oh sometimes I hate her. She is like me and at the same time so much worser and stuborn and idiot, but she is so much more brave than I am. 

She isnt a character on a paper anymore she has life and sometimes she acts in a way I want to hug her or hit her...I simply dont control it anymore. They are real, the story is real somewhere in another universe inside my head. lol Do I sound crazy? 

I know I will cry when I finish DI and have to say goodbye to her....( I'll probably rewrite it after and do a sequel).

Also this fics help me with my SHINee and Onew feels....damn Kpop and korean handsome princes! *screams*

And most importantly I met a lot of special friends because I decided to go for it and post my story even though it . lol

You also should do it. Write something that moves you. Do you want to go on a date with a SHINee member? Find one member on the street someday? Kidnap Minho...I dont know...Just write! XD (Please dont kidnap Minho!)

Since Dating an Idol birthday is coming closer, I cant believe its one year already, I decided to gift you with something. Ive been thinking about writing  a special chapter. Maybe Lillie birthday since I didnt talk about it on the story and her birthday has passed already while Jinki was away recovering. 

Adding it to the story now would be ridiculous so I can write about that special moment and tell you what happened and you didnt see on the fic. 

Yes? 

However Im still thinking about it....Can I even do it?! lol

So this is it! Thank you so much to everyone who decided to give it a go at my story, specialy the ones who stayed and read more than one chapter, the ones who kept reading and subscribed; the ones who still read to this day, comment and even upvote; and the ones who talk about it with me as if it was real (yes you know who you are! <3 )

Thank you for wanting to know my characters and my stories. 

Until the day I give up on them...thank you!

Im going now....I'll stop being mushy! ^^