"I live to put a smile on people's faces." That's something I've always said. But when the waters get calm, and everyone turns away, I'm left by myself.
To sit and wonder.
Try to figure out.....who I really live for?
In the stillness of the night....my thoughts make me happy....thinking about someone else's smiles from that day.
What do I enjoy doing? .....I dont really know.
What do I really want to become in life? ........that again I dont know.
I've never taken to time to be a selfish little er and ask myself.....what do I want?
Set a list of goals that would make me happy. Remove the thoughts that act as a constant reminder of the expectations other people have placed on me. Stop giving a damn about what others have to think about me.

For this shall always be my greatest weakness.....
Caring about what others have to say?
Living my life to ensure that they're happy..

It's only when I think about it, I see how unhappy I can be sometimes. I find joy in frienship. In being there for others.....and help making them smile.

I spend all my time making others smile.....to the point that I bypass my own happiness.

I'm tired. I really am. :( And this massive migraine isnt helping at the moment.
It will be weakness. I'd doubt the happiness of my own
This will forever be my greatest weakness cuz I somehow think that it's what I was put on Earth for.
But when the smiles fade.....and everyone turns their backs.....it's then I'm left to wonder, who do I live for? It's in those moments I realise that I miss the finer things in life.