Ahahahahahahahahahaha
November really
But I should probably stop thinking that way
Beause since I think this way, bad things will probably happen and it'll be my fault.
Like in a way it's like I was asking for a bad November again.
But why. I know I don't want bad things, but I expect it and probably get it?
Like wow.
Can I please stop.
I really want to stop feeling like this
It a lot.
Like what am I even doing.
I know how I feel.
It's so frustrating though.
This doesn't need to happen.
It probably shouldn't have happened
But one day it could.
So why not now
I should just get used to it right now
I don't need to talk to my best friend everyday.
Pft it's not like they have to give me attention you know?
And that's okay, I just have to get used to that.
LIFE IS GREAT. Sure it a lot at times  but bruh.
Life overall should be amazing.
I mean come on, in your dying moment, you should be like
Aw man I'm gonna miss life and all the good times and maybe even some of the bad.
Yeah. There we go. I just need to convince my heart on what my head believes.
So heart stop being a ing basic and like not.
K thanks