Eventhough I said that I really don't care about what others think about me,at the end of the day,I'll start thinking back about myself.

'I should have done this,I should have done that.'

I'll regret at the end of the day.I'll tell myself that I should have just listen to their opinion about me and try to improve myself but then I couldn't do that.My ego was too overwhelming.I tried telling myself that if I were to continue doing this,I'll end up alone.And again,it was useless.I would always end up with my own opinion and wouldn't give a damn about them.I'll get really angry when they speak about me.I'll start cursing them and stuffs.And the cycle goes on.

'I should have done this. No I shouldn't,who gives a about their opinion.'

I wonder what's wrong with me tbh.I don't know why am I like this.I'm just weird.