Goodbye
Hey guys.
It's CupieCakesx3 here.
I hate to say it, but I think my time here is finally done. It's funny, actually, cause I remember it was only maybe.. August? Even the beginning of September, I was all like "I'll never leave AFF ahaha..what? Unfinished stories? Nooo never..." Well it's..It's finally come.
I haven't update since August. I haven't written since July. Honestly, I try. I hate that I'm going to have unfinished stories..But I will. I'm so sorry.
I'm the type to hate people who do that, but I'm a hypocrite. I just..No matter how much I try, I just can't write.
After I got a new computer, I just..I don't know I stopped. I didn't have resources for graphics, so I stopped going on the computer, and that made me stop writing.
I've, in all honesty, lost interest.
My English teacher ; she can't teach and she made me absolutely hate English. She made me hate reading, she made me hate writing. Anything to do with literature, I seriously cannot stand. Just the thought of it makes me so completely angry.
I mean.. I honestly don't know. I listen to sad songs, and it makes me want to write. But what is there to write? These days..there's really no originality left in the world. Everything has basically been done when it comes to writing sad things. I just..I'm not creative to write anymore.
I don't even..What am I even writing now? Am I trying to explain why I'm leaving? I just..I'm so messed up these days and I just..I don't know anymore. I want to write. I want to make graphics.
But graphics have become a chore for me; so I don't want to do it anymore.
And writing...theres just nothing to write.
I'm sorry. I've been gone for two months, and I just..I don't even want to write this because I don't want to face the reality that I'm stopping. I love AFF. I love it so much.
But it's my time to leave.
I can't even read fan fiction anymore, so how can I write it? I don't know. Am I even making sense right now? I'm listening to Kyungsoo's song for Cart OST and it's seriously messing me up right now so does any of this even make sense?
I don't know. All I know is that I'll miss you. I'll miss everyone. I feel bad..for doing this. I don't know. I just... I don't want to leave, but how can I stay if I have no business left here?
I'm so deeply, sincerely sorry that I'm not finishing any of my fics..Maybe one day, I'll come back and finish...but for now, I'm leaving. I mean, I'll be one sometimes to check things and stuff, and you can message me and you'll get replies.. but I won't be writing fan fiction, and I won't be making graphics, and I won't really read anymore.
I'm sorry I disappointed you all. I never wanted it to come to an end like this.
I'm sorry..but goodbye.
Goodbye, everyone.
(honestly, if you know me, things like this blow over in a few days; max a week. so i might be back to write yugyeom fan fiction because that boy makes me feel a lot of things. but right now, im sincerely saying goodbye..)
Comments