Just two days to go until my ultimate bias' birthday! :)

And I just need to get a piece of my mind off that's been going on about him, it's distracting. Sigh.

I'm torn between how I feel with Yi Fan right now.

I'm so happy that he's looking a lot better than he does a few months back, if you know what I mean.

He's even got a movie, magazine spreads and he got to sing for a movie OST and his own song will be released on his birthday!

I feel like a proud mother attending a PTA meeting to receive an award for my child. ^_^

Also, I'm still a little bit upset because until now, his reason for leaving EXO is not yet certain. Too much speculations and opinions. -_-

Health issues? Income distribution? Greed??

What hurts the most is that he's branded as a traitor. Really? Is he?

I don't know what to think myself but I can see the points of argument from both sides.

But if I trust the way I've known him as Kris for the past year, I'll say that he's not a traitor. It's just that he's a pretty private person so that's why he didn't clue in s. He didn't want them involved.

But does that also mean that he doesn't trust s enough? What were they to him? Colleague? Acquaintance? Friend? Family?

But what if the members actually know about his departure but they just don't know how to handle it?

Until now, I'm confused. It makes me question a lot of things and I feel frustrated because I'm just a fan who can only watch at the sidelines and take whatever facts they would share without certainty that they are really facts. :(

Is it too selfish to ask for the whole truth from them?

Putting the heaviness aside, the way I see him didn't change one bit. :"""> I may be spazzing over Luhan and KaiSoo and the rest but he's still my UB. Ever since I saw the EXO-M MAMA mv. <3

Yeah, lines of a crazed fangirl. *giggles*

And if I ever get to meet him somewhere, I don't think I'll be able to ask him for a picture. I would ask him how he's doing, if he's okay, if he's happy and tell him that he shouldn't marry, ever. LOL! Jk. But that's really half-meant. :3 And I'm creepy, I know. :P

I guess I just had to write something about him to clear my mind a little bit. My workaholic brain manages to get Yi Fan in between my thoughts that it's really getting bothersome so here it is, I wrote it down.

This is just pure babbling and this doesn't make global warming slow down but it has made me feel better. :D

If you can say something to Yi Fan, what would it be? :)