So yeah. I don't know but I suddenly felt a little lonely being a kpop fan. I have successfully converted my friends in being a kpop fan so we always communicated well but not all the time since they're still newbies and don't know that much compared to me. Not saying that it's bad tho. But what makes me quite depressed is that I still feel like my kpop world is so small. I haven't been in any kpop concerts, conventions, gatherings etc. I still haven't met friends very similar with my likes and dislikes in the Hallyu Wave.

I always see my friends in FB upload pictures of their kpop friends, experiences and others. Some of them are even my schoolmates and batchmates. I felt jealous of them. I want to get close to them especially I always see them in school. I want to make my circle bigger. I want to be recognized by them. I want to have a set of friends whch shares very same interests and experienced with that. But I'm just too shy. I'm the type of person that won't talk to you unless you talk to me first. Even though I want to talk to them first, I feel like they will think bad of me. They might think that I'm just going with the flow especially kpop is getting more popular. I feel like they won't be interested with me 'cause I'm a nerd (yeah, I'm in the star section -_- one reason I can't fangirl hard). I tried to talk to one of my kpop fan schoolmate through twitter. The conversation we had is very very short. She was the last one to DM me and I didn't reply. I feel like she's just forced to talk to me out of respect so I didn't reply back. I don't know what's with me. I'm not an attention seeker tho XDD What should I do? Should I need to have so much confidence? Brrrrrrrrrrrr.