why this feeling never stop??? T_T

Hi....

This is first time I write in this blog... but I need to write coz this feeling really torture me from inside. ... regarding Sungmin's wedding. .. I knew it too late to write about it. .. but I need to write it somewhere. . N I choose to write it here....

When first I knew about it.. I try to calm down. .. I try to think positive. ... and yes.. I success at that time.. I'm happy for him n her... n I knew he was at the age for married. ..

But....

When time passes. ...

Everytime. ..

When I heard his voice. .again n again....

When I play a ballad songs...

When I read a fanfics

It will remind me about that news...

N I will cry hardly cause my heart really hurts. ...

That time I knew. .. it still hard to accept the news with a open heart. .. day will pass... 13 Dec will also come n go... but that day will mark as "Sungmin's beautiful day"... Did I ready for that day...

When I watch "This is love" mv.... when his part... I asked myself. .. is he that will marry this year??? What will happen if after this one by one members will announce their wedding date??? Will I feel like this again n again??? Did my heart really ready for that news? ??

Cieda.25 oct 2014.18:30

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luckiest #1 Oct 25, 2014 07:04:07

Don't worry about it. Even though he got married already, he won't forget you as his fan. :)

MieyFishy #2 Oct 25, 2014 05:43:04

Hey, I know that feeling... You know I am so worried that I have to let the boys go sooner than I suppose. I am so afraid to let them go after I found out after Sungmin. FYI, I study so hard in order to get scholarship to Korea when I grow up - there's only a reason why I wanna go there, to meet SJ of coz... Just then, the news broke my heart and everything. I try to think positive and move on too but there will be a moment that I'll be very sad and afraid, thinking that Donghae will get married soon. Anything happen, he's still Suju... whatever happen, they are Suju.