Everyone have been speaking about what they feel about the marriage.... i wanted too, but i chose not to yesterday... 

But everything has been pent up inside of me that i cannot take it anymore... i can't talk to anyone... either they won't understand or i will be judged... to say that we have different opinions about this matter... but i always think mine was not really important because my opinion wont change what happened already... no matter how i agreed or disagreed about his marriage.... he wont cancel it because it is his life... he has all the rights to decide for his own.... and mine will never matter...

Sungmin is in the right age to get married right? so who are we to keep him from what he wants... we are just his FANS... nothing more, nothing less... and that's have been established right at the moment we decided to be their fans.... i know.. i'm not a Sungmin biased so i might feel different as how they feel about this matter... but i tell you i think i do... I MIGHT BE ONE OF THOSE IMMATURE FANS WHO CANT ACCEPT IT YET.... i accept it.... if you will think of me that way... because that is how i feel.... but no matter how i cant accept it... i cant and will not do anything about it except try to accept it... because marriage is inevitable... i know to myself that it will happen someday... but i guess i was just a bit shaken that he is getting married already... i just didn't realize or admit to myself that it could happen anytime... that it could happen faster that i think it will...

I'm saying that we shouldn't blame Sungmin for his decision... it was like telling him that loving someone and marrying the one you think is your the one is wrong... it's just that his timing is so wrong..... he decided to get married and announced it during or in between promotions... when the group is striving to win daesang since it will take them again a long time bacause a lot of members will enlist after this album.... same goes with his attitude.... BUT i couldn't blame him entirely on that one... announcing marriage is super difficult to do when you are an idol.... i even applaude about his confidence that atleast he told it to us on his blog... it's better than getting nothing right??? it is so much better than knowing it from the company and articles.... i cannot blame Sungmin really... no matter how this things ended... i just cant... he just fall in love like most people do... love do wonders right??? and cupid hit him so hard...

K-ELFs is not being mad and wanting him out because of his marriage... like i've said... his timing and atittude... but kicking him out of the group is wrong in everyway we look at it... he dont deserve to be kick just because of that... he work his of just to be there and achieve what he is now... and about saying Sungmin is using ELFs  money for his marriage... of course he will use it... it is his damn salary.... we give them that and we can't say anything about how they will use that... IT IS HIS SALARY... it was like your mother telling you not to use their money to buy merch... did they ever say that to us?? no right? because at the time it is handed to us... it is ours... so how can you say that to him when you used your parent's money at some point of your life to buy your luxuries... we didnt work hard for that... while sungmin stays all night for practice, getting sick for working so hard and not missing any schedule.... so dont use that as an excuse.... 

BUT i can't blame K-ELFs entirely too.... they are hurt badly... can you imagine ...them knowing it but keeping it so things will not turn out badly but this happens... you will be mad at least... and we can't blame them... they love sungmin too much... you fall in love right??? and you did reckless things when things don't go your way?? it is just like that... they also felt that Sungmin didn't trust them... He could've just said it personally to ELFs.... and we would accept it... but things have to happen like this...

but Sungmin and K-ELFs are not the only one to blame but as they said.... International fans have fault too... 

to say we judge K-ELFs that easily and didn't give them a chance or have a moment to hear and understand... of course they will be mad at us... we already judge them without knowing their reasons... no matter if those reasons can be absurd... we just disregard it... we should understand how they felt.... no matter how bad it sounds that they know SJ better because they are close to them because they are in SEOUL... but i think they've got a point... we wont know Sungmin will be getting married until he announced it on his blog... but they known it since spring... they know them since pre debut... aren't they? they could saw them everyday in every way as possible? wont that be knowing better? we are hundred or even million miles away from them so we can't tell better... 

the worst case scenario had happened already... that the fight is not between fandoms but within the fandom... we might feel different about this matter... some is really happy for him but some can't accept it yet.... but we should all in this together cause we are ELFs... i thought we are EVERLASTING FRIENDS??? then why are we fighting?? we should be hand in hand... maybe rejoicing about him getting married... consoling the ones who can't accept it yet... we could do it together.... we might feel different about this matter yes.... but we are ELFs... we should be there for each other and for Super Junior... 

who will Super Junior lean on if we are not there even for each other? who will bring daesang and all other awards for Super Junior if we are not united?? this is just a big milestone to us that we could pass through if we learn to do it together again... 

Acceptance might come in a long time.... but just as long as there are people who will be there at your side... everything will be alright... everyone will move on.. maybe not the way we think it will but atleast it will happen...

PROM15E TO 13ELIEVE right??? where is it now when we needed it the most...

keep it strong ELFs...!! ^^ FOR SUPER JUNIOR AND FOR ELFs... <3