The anger and the beauty that never really goes away

it's not something you could wait out as it disappears, nothing ever really just disappears

 

 

 

Take me back to the moment i felt alive soshi

 

 

They can tell you that they want you to stay for what you've done. They can tell you that it's alright to be what you've become

 

I learnt to accept everything cause people change. They grew up, dreamt different things and chose their own paths. I am not choosing any sides, I can't. I love the other 8 and I love Jessica but these days it's getting hard not to bend and just fck it and take the other side. The only thing I want and wish is for them the 9 of them to talk things out, lower the pride and understand one another but I can't see any reconciliation as of this moment since all of them are hurt, they can't meet half way but hopefully in the right time at the right place when hearts are not shattered all of them can smile and forgive one another. 

I believe all of this is just one heck of a misunderstanding, one can't seem to understand and the other one wants to be understood. 

If only we could push aside statistics and all of that we so proudly claim to know. wouldn’t we find something that we DON’T know? To look beyond labels and brands. 

 

 

 

There comes a time in life where one is to decide between happiness and strife. Lost in a world with no street sign, deciding where to go when all you feel like is blind. Trapped, lost, alone and confused. Life is an overwhelming complicating muse. 

 

 

Reminiscing over the past snsd. with so many painful and happy memories haunting me trying so hard to fight them but its like I’m fighting me
the thoughts in my head is over taking me if I could take the images and moments out I would. Reminiscing over the moments they were together the smile, laughs, the good times they shared but everything wasn’t what it seemed. wishing they could take back the things they did but instead I’m just REMINISCING

 

 

 

 

 

There are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to realise this and most often when you do it’s too late
and there’s nothing worse than too late.