Funny thing is, I had the feeling that when SJs relationships are finally revealed, the first will be Sungmin's (i have long accepted Shindong's..heheh). I see him as someone who really wants to find the love of his life, not to mention he can really make an ideal husband. While in class, when I saw my tl moving really fast, I knew something is up. The first few twitter messages I saw was about 'Kyumin is still real'..'stay strong pumpkins'. then the confirmation news appeared - Sungmin and Kim Sa Eun's picture. 

My first reaction?...Ow...so the twitter spam about the gf thing is true after all... I'm so happy Min already has a girlfriend! (believe me, that was my initial reaction ^_^

Then  I kept on reading the reaction of ELFs especially the Sungmin biased - the shock, the hurt, the denial and it made my heart heavy. Then it dawned on me - Min's heart is now beating for one particular woman. That's when I swayed a little. I also got jealous. I am now sharing the sentiments of the fans who loves him dearly.

But can I do? Min chose her. If fans don't accept her, it's Min who will get hurt. I don't want that to happen. I wasn't even shocked when Heechul mentioned that Min cried. I know Sungmin loves his fans so much and he doesn't want us to leave him even if he already has a special someone.

So here I am right now, spending time ranting in aff, since this is the only place I can express my feelings while still being anonymous.

My current feelings? I am slowly accepting it, to the point that I'm now willing to read some fics about them. I'm a hardcore Kyumin shipper fyi. My account here in aff is all because of them.

What about my kyumin heart? As long as my beloved Kyumin authors continue to write Kyumin, I'll help the ship afloat. I will row really hard. This is my happy pill - atleast in the alternate world. Until when? Only time can tell....

P.S.

Why am I seeing a scene in my head that during one of SS6 world tours, Min will be strongly teased by SJ members and that he will announce to the world how much he loves Sa Eun..(awww..my heart!)..band aid anyone?