yes... i finally got to write something.

so i was to post the finale for Hooked On You on the 27th of this month...

so i kinda thought my fellow joyers need a boost to their kyumin passion

but things went crazy when Sungmin's dating scandal just exploded on our faces.

first things first...

I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE FOR SUBSCRIBING TO, READING, COMMENTING, READING AGAIN, AND UPVOTING HOOKED ON YOU
it's actually my 10th completed fic here on AFF YAY!!!
i am so proud of it... and it could not have been big if it weren't for my dearly beloved joyers <3
and i know, some people who aren't joyers read it too, some told me... they read it because they loved the story
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
words are falling short... i don't know how to express how thankful i am :')
and surprisingly, My Senior Year got featured weeks ago... but HOY got more votes
now all i am wishing for is HOY to be featured too one day... greedy , yes... but *fingers crossed*
thank you... i want to write a 4000-word essay on it, but i dont have enough time
AND YES THERE WILL BE AN EPILOGUE... a not to long one....
aaaaand... if HOY miraculously gets 300 upvotes i'll post a 2nd epilogue :) yes. i. am. bribing. you.
IF YOU WANT TO VOTE AND YOU NEED KARMA, MESSAGE ME
but please use that karma to vote for other kyumin fics too... at least the ones you read.
coz good or bad, once i read a fic i give it an upvote, a simple gratitude and respect to the author's efforts
i wish more readers would do that... because after everything that's been happening lately
WE NEED TO SPREAD THE JOY
as i've said in my HOY Finale note : DON'T FORGET TO TRUST WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN

now, now... on me disappearing on twitter...
an hour after announcing Hooked On You Finale is available, i deactivated my twitter account
the question i believe is why? right?
well it's because of Sungmin's dating issue... but not because i am angry...
of course, i reacted calmly... if i remember it right my first reaction was "I WOULD HAVE BEEN MORE SURPRISED IF THEY SAID THEY WEREN'T DATING"
and yes... i was calm... i was feeling okay... but my FEED.... OH MY GOD SO MANY PEOPLE I'M FOLLOWING WERE FEELING SO DOWN AND HEART BROKEN IT WAS BEGINNING TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD.... i was calm... but then i was starting to feel disappointed... well of course, there is always that little part in me that felt irritated, mad, and betrayed, and jealous, and heartbroken... a little... but then as i keep on reading... the feeling was growing. and i am starting to feel a little hate, a little anger... not just on sungmin but on both of them, especially our dear kim saeun
good thing my dad flew in from another country and visited me... he's so wise and all.. so i asked him. "daddy. i'm starting to have negative feelings about some people but i don't want to." and he asked me why i was starting to have negative feelings and i told him it's because i'm seeing so many people feeling hurt and angered, i'm starting to feel it too... he shrugged and then he just said "disappear"  way to go wise daddy... i thought he was joking.. but then when i deactivated my twitter, i felt peace... i deleted instagram and tumblr app on my phone too... i was going to leave AFF too but i don't want you guys to think that i am going to stop writing kyumin for you..and of course if i deactivated my fics won't be available for you to read...
so on my free time yesterday all i was doing was checking stats here of AFF...
i actually felt a little sad because i lost some subscribers... again i am repeating that i am only writing kyumin...
yesterday was like this : gain 1 lose 2, gain 2 loose 5, gain 1 lose 1, lose 1 again, but then when i checked today i still gained more than i lost <3 thank you

so there goes that.... i dont really know what i'm talking about i'm just typing and typing... not thinking about what to say.

oh and then there also that part where i finally broke down XDDDD
i was calm right??? but then heechul posted something on instagram
THE FLOOD GATES JUST OPENED AND I DECIDED TO LET IT ALL OUT
I LITERALLY YELLED AT SUNGMIN'S PHOTO AND TOLD HIM I HATE HIM
BUT THEN I TOOK EVERYTHING BACK AFTER I WAS DONE CRYING
*you really don't wanna know about this... it was a crazy moment*
I REALIZED IT WAS JUST ME BEING HURT BECAUSE I HAVE DEDICATED A QUARTER OF MY LIFE TO WRITING
AND I ONLY WRITE KYUMIN SO YEAH, THAT'S A QUARTER OF MY LIFE ON KYUMIN
i think i should clear this up... no, i don't actually think kyu and min are really dating... haha, have i ever told you that?
but it's just that i like their pairing... like i just can't pair kyu with anyone other than min... i like kyu with min... but min i kinda dig him with kangin *guilty*
WITH. just WITH. not in love, not in a relationship. just WITH.
and so writing stories are different... i refuse to call myself delusional... because i know what i write is FICTION...
but i'm not saying what i write should not come true... LOLLLL! i don't mind if it does hahahahaha...

WAIT... I'M SCROLLING UP TO SEE WHAT THE BLOG TITLE IS, I FORGOT WHAT ELSE TO DISCUSS...

yeah okay, so i'm done with HOY update and sungmin drama.....

i know you are waiting to hear about this...

MY SENIOR YEAR COMEBACK (i know it's not an idol but yes, it's doing a comeback)

hmmmm.... you'll probably get the next update some time in october... i'm incredibly busy now...
i'll try to update every 2 weeks max and in a minimum of 1 week... i hope my readers will be much nicer this time :)
don't worry i have learned to expect the worst... <3 and i won't select readers, that was a selfish thought... SORRY, that was stupid.
i will keep it open to all the subscribers... but please be nicer... hekhekhek....
after all the in HOY i really miss my innocent sungminnie and minbunny and of course kyuhyunnie who's flying to china
LOL, do you have predictions on what will happen??? it could give me ideas... because you know i write as i get an idea when it comes to MSY
i still dont know how to end... so it might not end at all ahahahaha XDDDD hahahahaa
but really that precious yellow star next to MSY title is just... ahhh... i still cant believe it... how can a kyumin author like me get that, right?

HMMM.... WHAT ELSE??? 

oh regarding HUNGER hahaha... it's supposed to be out after 3000+ subs... but then since MSY got featured my unique subs increased quickly... so i'll release it next week... for getting 3500++ subs YAY!!!! if you are not aware, HUNGER is a sequel for THIRST <3 kyumin/minkyu rated fic

HAPPY TOGETHER... it's going to be something like HOY... light and a little ty <3
BACK TO ONE is going to be a little angsty though... wish me luck because i am scared to write angst ehe...

i think i'll write BACK TO ONE before HAPPY TOGETHER...
i'll begin writing by OCTOBER too :)
 

BACK TO ONE has less than 10 chapters.... i know i at this... i say 4 chapters i'll write 20, i say 1 i'll write 3...
but really... this one has like what 7? 8? chaps... i organized it like CONNECTED which was locked to 10 chaps *though i divided chap 9 hahaha it ended up with 11 mehehehe

ARE YOU SERIOUSLY READING ALL THIS??? I KEEP TALKING... WELL I AM TALKATIVE IN PERSON
I CAN TALK FOR 3 STRAIGHT HOURS WITH YOU JUST NODDING XDDDDD

so... i'm busy right now... yeah i'll say it...
i have photography seminar in october... 3 seminars....
of course i have my regular work in the studio (if you still do not know, i am a dance teacher, i have k-pop class *surprise* and lately i've been teaching basic hiphop for kids and adults)
when the season calls for it i work as a cheerleading and basic gymnastics coach... on weekend mornings of october and november i am busy with this

AND GUESS WHAT.... I'LL BE BUSIER IN NOVEMBER
i'm opening my own company... yes... this is one of my goals before getting married
FINALLY!!!! i found the perfect spot to build my own studio... what type of studio.... hmmmm
well on the ground floor it will be a store-type slash office for my studio
it'll bespecializing in services such as photography, videography and hair and makeup all by me *or at least under my supervision*
second floor is going to be 2 small dance studios... for walk-in classes... i'll have my classes here from then on too T^T saying goodbye to my recent studio soon
and then on the third floor is going to be my new crib... yeah... my savings going to badly severed XDDD
I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS MOMENT TO THANK MY FATHER FOR SELLING TWO OF OUR PROPERTIES FOR MY PRECIOUS DREAM

you don't even want to know about december.... XMAS SEASON, GOOD LORD, EVENTS EVERYWHERE
i'll be out taking photos of people in parties, birthdays, weddings, with santa, without santa, calendar shoots! christ! calendar shoots are the most draining! XDDD
i know i have to quit something to do other things... BUT I JUST CANT! although i might really be retiring from dancing soon...
i said this when i was 25... that i'll retire from dancing... turns out quitting on doing something you love is a bit impossible...

ARE YOU SERIOUSLY STILL READING ALL THIS ?

okay since i've said way toooooo much... i'll say goodbye for now...
you got to know me again <3

i wish everyone a good life for the coming days...
i wish all the negative things we have to be gone and be replaced with positive ones...
i wish that most of you feel better soon...
to those who are going to have examinations : STUDY AND DO A FRIGGIN GOOD JOB AND BE PROUD OF IT!
to those who are going to be on breaks : REST AND BE HAPPY
to those who are planning to venture into something new : YES, GO AHEAD, DO IT... AND DO IT WELL!
to those who are going to be stuck doing nothing : GET YOUR UP AND HELP SOMEONE DO SOMETHING
to those who are busy or going to be very busy : HAVE YOU SEEN MY SCHEDULE?
to those who are still reading this : WOW... YOU ARE SOMETHING.

LET'S KEEP FAITH OKAY???? AGAIN, TRUST WHAT YOU BELIEVE.

with this post i banish all the negative feelings i have <3 i hope you do too :)

let's be happy
love, SOHPEE
or should i practice writing my name like this Sohpee, CEO
MUAHAHAHA!
 

IF YOU READ EVERYTHING I WROTE HERE, JUST KNOW THAT I WILL FEEL LOVED BECAUSE YOU JUST LISTENED TO EVERYTHING I HAD TO SAY

ALSO, I WANT TO SAY THAT I AM CLAPPING MY HANDS FOR THOSE WHO TOLD ME THAT THEY WILL STILL SHIP KYUMIN :) <3