Lifeless. 

Towards the final exam, there are many problems arrived. Not only about study but yet about daily life. So basically we are going to finish our first semester in two weeks. And now there is a problem regarding the roommates. I thought we can stay in one room together until all of us graduate. Yet, it is just a dream. A dream which will be never come true. I know, people have their own life too. Not only stick to other people for the whole year. They probably will be sick with that. Seeing a same people everyday. Dealing with people sick behaviour. It is not easy at all. But just make apromise while you cannot make it true. It stress me out. And now I know I am just an outcast. No more friends bother to care about me. No more friends who will to see and take a look about me. Just bcause Im a lazy person maybe? Just because Im stupid yet I have no effort to be smart and good in studies. Just bcause I always talk ramble about my stupidity and lazy to the behaviour. People hate me. Eventhough they are somebody who I think important to me. I need them to survive but I am just nobody. They have abandoned me. Im done. I thought I have friends here but it turn out to be im just a loner. A girl who is incredibly annoying. Im just done with it. I need my family. I need my home. I need my mom better than friends. I need my father more than i need a boyfriend. Damn to myself cause im not living good enough as a good human. I just nobody. Sorry for random things. But I dont think I could hold it anymore. Just AFF is the place which Im free from my friends. Where I can spit out everything without being judge by my friends