Sometimes I find myself ignoring people because I just don't want to be blaimed anymore.

Funny.... I tell them to blaim me and not the children but it sometimes, its just too much. 

For this, what's happening right now, I really don't want to be blaimed for this.

I guess it really its my fault. I'm not comfortable with people. I don't like adults. I'm scared.

I can't choose. I feel that if I say yes or no, it will ruin my life. I don't want to move. I don't want it!

I don't want a lot of stuff but I'm really just scared.

I'm scared of adults. They way they think. The way they act. I'm scared they don't care and would just throw me somewhere. It's been like that for so long. It's still like that. When I see them, I get quiet. Don't expect me to open up. I've been told to keep my lips shut. They can't know my secrets. Once they do, they'll use it against me.

I'm sorry, father, I'm not the perfect daughter I use to be.

I feel the need to rant. I'm sorry.