Okay so I think I have blogs more often than update my stories but whatever haha. You guys won't be mad right?

*You all pout and sulk*

*I poke your cheeks*

Okay all's good.

Anyway lately I just started a fan account and I need to write the stories I started...I think I'm going nuts. I also need to talk about my friends in school. I sometimes wish that I would get that perfect friend that you always hear about in stories but never in real life. 

IT'S SO UNFAIR!

I mean ugh I dunno. I have a bunch of friends.

N-is a two-faced . She just played truant today too.

R-is quite kind and holy (always prays and nags us) but she is also rather loud and cannot keep secrets.

A-is awesome. She is funny and witty and is a directioner. But I feel like she and I aren't really close.

K-well...this one is tough. She is my bestie and I love her and all but she's so sensitive towards everything and so easily jealous...

S-she's like the super outgoing and crazy version of me. We are the same but I just keep it more contained.

Today I just felt so out of the clique. Like I wasn't one of them. It made me feel really sad and I was wondering how great if I could make some perfect friends who support me and the kind that goes to each other's houses and know your parents well. You get what I'm saying?

The kind of friend that will never leave you alone and do so much things for you. I would totally return the favour and be the best friend ever!

It's so hard to be a stupid 14 year old girl. Life .

I also have some guy problems and I just...I feel so stressed with everything in my life.

I keep wondering how dumb i could possibly get. in primary school, people call me a , a flirt and things like that. I don't even want to remember those times. I'm just affectionate so what?

Are you kidding me?

And then I am so dumb and impulsive and naïve whyyyyyy

I made a friend on instagram and we snapchatted then progress to whatsapp. We've never met before and suddenly he confesses to me. i reject him cos like duh we've never met. And then he ignores me. By the way he's 2 years older than me. During that period, I confided in my girlfriends and K was scolding me. I felt so annoyed.

I already have a mother to nag at me. I want a friend who would support me and advise me but nagging is all i get. if i wanted to be nagged at I could just have went to my mum!

Besides that, I was talking to a primary schoolmate and we are quite close. We've hung out before. We texts like sometimes and stop for a while before texting again. We are that kind of texting buddies.

Suddenly he confesses to me and it was so weird. he said he liked me but he didn't want cos it's distracting and we are too young. We talked a bit more and stopped. If he liked me, he would make the effort to continuously keep in contact with me but does he? No.

I was wondering...Am I really a ? I don't get it. I can't tell how people view me. I am being myself and suddenly people just bash me whaaaaaa

I'm just tired and honestly need advice. It doesn't help that my parents keep lamenting about my grades. I'm a pretty okay student, mostly As and 2 Bs but this year is streaming year for Singaporeans who go through this you know what I'm saying.

So I was hoping that by blogging this, you guys could give me your opinion and advice.

~ Kelly