The pathetic person I still am .
Today was the back of school after three monthes of summer .
I got my contact lenses on instad of those nerd glasses , fixed my hair , does some makeup and went out wearing new outfit .
I'm still useless for thinking he'd pay a stare for me .
Unfortunealy he didn't .
All my male classmates complimented me and said I look better without glasses because it reveal my green eyes , but that's not how I feel .
I feel hurt again when I first saw him . Though , I didn't even listen to what my friend said when she talked , I was too busy staring at him .
I can't believe I still love him through all this . Even after three years .
He was looking happy , normal with his own friends . I looked normal too , but more pretty to make him look at me .
We made eye contact three or twice but he didn't even say ' Hi ' to me and it hurts how I still manage to wait for him like a .
In lessons , I looked at him long time . I stared .
I wish I would be a little brave and dare to explain this situation between us . I want to know his true feelings for me . I want him to say ' I want you to go out with me , because I love you ' How pathetic of me .
You guys probably don't know the feeling about wanting to hug him tightly and kiss him . I missed him all summer and that's what I felt to first see him . I felt like crying .
I'm hopeless .
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