This is my sad story ..

There was once a girl full of dreams and happiness ! 

She had a crush on someone one year older than her . 

There was that boy in her classroom that loved her without telling so . 

He didn't know how to confess . He was shy and nervous when he meets her .

This lucky girl one day brought her guitar to the school , she sat in the middle of her friends and they began talking about stuffs when her crush appeared and asked her to handle him the guitar . 

She was dumb and naive , so she did . 

After way he left her alone as her friends left too and then her classmate appeared too and asked through a gentle cute voice . " Hey , can you give it to me just one second please ? " 

" What ? No . Absolutely not . " She said dumbly . 

" Why so ? " 

" Because my crush touched this . " She said proudly and pointed to her guitar . " Okay , then. " He said hurt and walked back to his classroom . He was maybe really hurt . 

After a month , this girl dated her crush but he was an and wasn't nice with her . He just exploited her then broke up . She didn't regret their break up because she hated him more than anything afterwards . She hated him and regretted to act so naive around . She regretted how she acted like this to her classmate , M ( His first letter of name ) . 

Then she had a crush on that another boy . This one is M . Her classmate that she hurt . 

She was going crazy trying to make him love her and care for her , but he refused . In revenge , he talked dirty things about her best friend , her childhood friend and soul sister N . 

Then he dated her for one day , it was the best of her life and suddenly broke up with her in front of all the pupils . He embarrassed her and just hugged her back and kissed her cheek like nothing had happened . 

Almost three years has passed and she couldn't forget him . They're still in the same class , they talk rarely but he isn't interested in her anymore . 

He made her cry nth times . He upset her . He broke her . He hurt her . 

But the problem that .. 

SHE STILL LOVE HIM .

She couldn't stop loving him and when she suddenly manage and tell her mind to stop , he'll came throwing some jokes and skinship that would make her heart go wild . He act normal with her like a classmate , but she isn't normal that way . Every move he still makes , makes her heart burst inside her ribcage and it annoys her how she is so dependent of him and still can love him even through all this . 

She sometimes tell herself and friends that she don't love him anymore and hate him but it's all lies . She still does everytime she thinks she could get over this love thing . 

She's still young , but she wants him . She even cursed the moment she said those dumb fool words ! She wished having a time mashine to cancel this ! What she did to make him hurt ! 

This is our third and last year and I would do anything to make him regret what he did to me and love me back . 

How could I ? I really feel I do love him . 

I WANT TO TOUCH HIM . 

TO HUG HIM .

TO KISS HIM . 

BUT I CAN'T . I FEEL SPEECHLESS , USELESS AND SO PATHETIC . I AM TIRED OF THIS BULL

Propose me something ?