Back in 2013. Love was a killer. I was feeling terribly hurt.

Getting hurt over and over again. Pain of rejection was what i bear.

With every single girl, it was the same. Rejection.

I gave my all but they give me nothing at all.

They give me happiness, i thought would last.'

But pain was something more profound.

 

Then i met you, as beautiful as your appearance may seem

I will never forget the friendly greeting and smile you gave when you sat next to me.

Thats when i thought, Should i let my heart go again? To love again even though my heart hadn't fully recovered  yet.

Yes. My mind chanted over and over again. Calling out your name. My heart needs you.

 

We became friends not long after. Smiles shared and tears shed.

A boy broke your heart, i was there for you when you're shredded.

Then on May, Birthdays were celebrated. You and I shared the same month together.

May. May was ours. 

I wrote you a letter. Pouring out all i felt except for that little fact that i was madly in love with you.

I wrote our normal joking manner. " I love you. Not KIdding." 

I laughed for what was unexpected, you wrote me back a letter. 

I was touched beyond words when i saw the small writings beneath the paper.

" I love you too. No joke"

I didnt know if i was stupid. To let that letter be your promise to me, even though you never mentioned it.

You said you need me in your life. That i make you happy. 

 

Now, In the beginning of  September. The month when our friendship blossomed last year. It ends this year.

I lost you. To another. A guy who could give you so much more than i could ever.

I was nothing.. but a pathetic follower to you. A dog. You say.

Where did your sweet words gone to M.F. ? You need me, you say?
 

But you left me all alone today. 

I don't blame you.

I love you.

I just wanted you to know how much you make me happy. 

You make me so happy M.F . You make me feel lucky for once.

But.. I guess, Its for a while. Just a short sweet dream, a beautiful nightmare with you.

Reality is.. You'll never like me. You'll never like what i had done for you.

But i don't know why till now, i'm still calling out for you

because.. I love you. I love you. And i dont know how to stop.