Sorry in advance since this is the longest blog I have ever written. So  take a deep breath prepare and read ...as long as  you want it's not an obligation lol

So I was like really disappointed with the lack of interest of my story during both Round 1 and 2 and I had decided I would not go and sign up for Round three if they ever decided on creating a round three but I see they have and so for some reason I have decided I will go for round three. So I know maybe all of those who participated in round one or two or both who don't know about it would like to give it a go so go and vote on this poll to decide how we will write stories this time. Poll will be open until the 12th of September so hurry if you want to vote:

Unreal 2pm Challenge Round 3 Poll

And pick those prompts you'd like for the next round. The Sign up will start on the 14th of September. And for those who enjoy reading just stay in tune and add Unreal 2pm on LJ to follow the Unreal 2pm challenge. 

And that is all I have to say...at least about the Unreal 2pm Challenge. 

There is also the 2pm Secret Santa here on AFF. You guys should check it out if you haven't. I will be participating and am super excited for this one. If you haven't joined and would like to go ahead and signup. And If you want to read these fics when they are done just subscribe here: (click on the picture) 

So anyway some of you know, some of you may not know but I am sick. I have a polyp and a cyst in my sinus cavaities which have been in there for a little over 2 years. Some of you may remeber that through out these 2yrs I have been sick many times, too much to count but it was because of this that I have been sick so much. I didn't know that until I was diagnosed back in May this year.

So it goes like this...when I first realized I was having trouble with my sinusitus I went to my then doctor. She told me I had nothing, that I was fine and that it was just a normal sinusitis ailment. I knew there was something wrong because I could feel it and it was making hard for me to breathe correctly so after a while it gradually got worse and again I go to my doctor and she says it's nothing and gives me a prescription for Claritin and I'm like WTF?

Fine. I take it and it does nothing to help and pissed off I go and change doctors. I get sick again feeling breathless and my sinuses bothering still. I go to this other doctor and he goes and tells me the same, mind you without even checking he goes and say I have nothing but a regular sinus infection that is causing me to feel breathless and goes on with an explanation of how the respiratory system works. He then goes on to prescribe me Zyrtec and Albuterol so I can take some therapy to ease my breathlessness. All this time I am think why the hell should I be taking something that dries up my sinuses instead of draining them? But I say hey they are the doctors they know...right? Wrong! 

 

I get sick again a few months later. This time I decide to go to a doctor that my medical plan does not cover. A doctor who I have gone to when in my teens. So I go and she starts chatting me up like "What's going on with my life?" "How have I been?" and whatnot so I start to explain to her what was happening and she just goes ballistic! LOL See she cares. And she starts insulting those doctors who said I had nothing and just gave me Claritin and Zyrtec. She was like "Are they stupid? Why the hell give that medication to a patient with sinustis? They are supposed to give you something to drain your sinuses not dry them up that will only trap the infection and make things worse! How the hell did these idiots even graduate medical school?" So she gave me samples that she had so I wouldn't have to pay for expensive meds (she's awesome like that only thing is she talks too much lol) Anyway those meds help just a little so then I decide to change doctors again to my current one and she was the one who helped me the most.

When I told her about my situation she prescribed me some pills (which I don't remember the name right now) At the time I was not able to breath through one of my nostrils it was completely blocked. These pills worked wonders and helped drain my sinuses but then I became (Sorry for the graphicness of my story telling but I need you to understand what I am going through so you see why it's so bad) a leaking mess. My nose now drips daily and I need to have a freaking tissue or a small towel with me at all times. I have been this way for about 9 months now. Anyway after this I was reffered to an ENT (Ears, Nose,Throat Specialist) Who diagnosed my condition. Now after the diagnose I had to go through so much it was frustrating I am not going into detail because it is a very long story. The thing is I had have X-Rays done about 2 weeks later and after a month a CT-Scan then after all that, my situation just became worse. Currently I have to endure daily headaches because my infection has gotten a lot worse than I wanted. I suffer from burning sensations constantly (Very similar to when you accidentally inhale water through your nose) when I am doing nothing or when I try to drain my sinuses by blowing my nose and it is just so painful and stressful and frustrating and all words you can imagine for when something is horribly wrong.

My pain is not easily controlled because I am now basically immune to pain killers (Because I have taken so many during this situtaion) And so I really snapped and broke down a few days ago. I was depressed and frustrated by everything that has been going on. Even though I feel a bit better I still have the urge to cry every now and then because I just am sick and tired of my situation and this is the reason why it really is hard for me to write and update. So now you understand. So my appointment to finally find out what are my options and well hopefully I will get the option of surgery which I want so bad to take these things out of me and feel better is on the 15th of this month a week from today. So wish me luck. 

And that is the end of my rant explanation hehehe! Thanks for being so patient and for even reading this if you managed to read it all lol Sorry!  Love you guys ! Thanks! Especially to my lovely Happy PotatOT6's friends whom I love to death and my lovely Swedish sister whom I love even more for always being there for me in those hard times who know everything about my situation and have been supportive when I was breaking down. I really love you guys. ♥ And to those who know a lot about my situation who have been kind enough to give me advice and words of encouragement you know who you are thank you as well. Love you guys too!

Okay now I am done lol 

~GeminiDragon~
          Viv