you probably all know about the tragic accident of ladie's code, don't you. i'm not a fan (many say this but it's true) but it really shocked me.

my timeline on twitter was full of this since yesterday and that's why i want to underline that i'm not a fan.

whoever wasn't shocked, how can you not?

and then i got to read articles and facts about eunb and really, she was an angle in a human body. how she interacted with fans and was always so happy to even perform... i really cried because of her passing away.

and the driver also passed away and some said it was ladie's code manager and, shesus, this year is so messed up.

first the leeteuk issue (i was alsmost crying), then kris leaving (this made me cry so hard so often) and now eunb passing away.

i don't know what to think.

this year is sure full of (sad) surprises.

we're all a family because kpop is a second family to me, so eunb's passing really left me crying so many times.

and it was sojung's birthday on top of that and now she's going to have a facial operation and rise is still in coma and sojung still doesn't know that eunb is alive anymore. when sojung even woke up he said "oh no, i can't attend the things on our shedule, i'm really sorry." and this is just so heartbreaking.

i'm still comprehending all the things that are happening. we lost a shining star, another one is awake but doesn't know anything and the third one is not even able to open her eyes.

why is life so cruel.

did also hear about this accident being planned? many connected this with that one sasaeng fan kim yeonshin (is that her name? i just remembered her surname) because she said that someone's going to die this year. wtaf.

all those false information about ladie's code make me want to smash my phone and screen against the wall.

...

i can't even properly react to anything related to my favorite groups (though, i'm like a real supportive fan for a few minutes).

it took me off guard i'm still on my way of recovering from this...shock.

i do (or did) write on one of those new chaptered fics i won't post anytime soon (because i just don't wanna) but i'm so distracted i'm not able to write even a single word.

bora even almost cried yesterday and bestie was close to ladie's code i don't want to imagine the pain their feeling right now. my poor babies.

...

i'm sorry for this but i just don't know anymore. i'm on semi hiatus on twitter because of this and, yeah, i feel so sorry for the families, fans, friends and everyone that is close to those amazing girls. i'm still praying for rise to stay strong and wake up because loosing eunb already hurt us too much, loosing rise will double the pain.

let's just believe in eunb watching over sojung and rise.

rise will make it and be back to the real life again, 'kay?

#PrayForRise #PrayForLadiesCode #RIPEunB