This blog post represents my opinions, and my opinions alone

I don't know what it is with today, but I just feel like almost anybody and everybody have jumped on me. But, what feels the worst is that my best friend seems to be annoyed with me. We run a blog together, which I'm not into anymore. I prefer to be on other sites, not run a blog. Especially when the response is bad, which is something neither I or she can't help.

But, that's not what bugs me - what does bug me is that she texted me a few days ago about the VMAs. I was asleep when she texted me, and when I woke up, I noticed her messages. But I did not see her asking me if I could write about the VMAs on our blog, I just saw her writing about how great the performances were and that she was going to write about them on our blog. 

Today, she wonders why I didn't write about VMAs when I supposedly said I would. The thing is, I never stated I would write about it. I just said that I would check out the performances on our blog later on, because I had just awoken. Then I notice that her tone changes the more we speak, as she also wondered why I didn't say I didn't want to write about it. The thing there is, I never even saw her question concerning writing about the VMAs, I had just awoken and how many people can honestly say they're as bright as sunlight in the head after just waking up?

I state that to her, and here comes what actually hurts - she questions me with sarcasm. I told her why I hadn't written about VMAs, because I hadn't seen her question. That's the honest truth and I'm her friend, one of her closest. Why would she question me? I have no reason to lie or hide things from her. And it hurts when she questions me, because I haven't done anything, I'm telling her the truth and I expected her to have more trust in me, instead of becoming seemingly more annoyed, and continues to question me. 

She finds it strange that I missed her question, but I had just awoken up. I replied to her right after I woke up (this is a few days ago). I don't know about you, but I can't even do 1+1 right after I've awoken, my eyes squint and it takes a some time for me to really be clear in the head after I've awoken. It might sound like excuses. Let it, I'm telling the truth of what happened.

Also, we known each other for years - similar things have happened, this isn't a first. This was also a very small mistake, like earlier times. She knows I can make those from time to time. So yeah, it does hurt somewhat that she questions me. Because she is my closest friend. Why wouldn't I be honest with her? 

I am going to bring it up tomorrow, when we meet. I'll see what she'll say. And it might seem small to you or anybody else, but I was honestly hurt. I also feel that this discussion isn't over yet. Firstly, because she just ended our conversation by not responding to me. Secondly, because I have to make up my mind if I still want to be apart of this blog , which I think I don't want to be. Both she and I know that I haven't been a big part of the blog recently, I might check in from time to time (because my interest has faded). But I don't do much with the blog, and my interest isn't there. 

Perhaps it's a sad thing, because we've been running it for roughly 2 years. But, things change, I have other interests and I've never been that keen on writing a blog. I mostly chose to do it because it was something we'd do together, and because of the topics we write about. 

Either way, we'll see how it goes tomorrow, because I really want to talk to her about this face to face. I feel like she just dismissed me and I have more to say than what was said today.

(Completely off topic, but I love Super Junior's Mamacita!)