Okay so I'm not going to name names in this blog due to Privacy reasons etc. etc. but we'll have 'code names' for the characters. Okaiii? 

So recently.. I've become closer to 'DenDen' and we're really good friends still. But all of a sudden at school, she developed a crush on 'Dew' and I'm not saying that's a problem, because I have crushes too that have developed at school. I just know how to keep it in and not tell the entire universe and living creature ever existed. *cough* *cough*

Now to the problem, DenDen has sorta become obsessed and lemme tell you, it's not the 'good' type of obsessed. Den denies her feelings for Dew when someone says that she shouldn't like him and so on, so forth. I personally don't like that.. I mean, if you have feelings for someone then you shouldn't be afraid to show it and you shouldn't deny it when someone opposes you. It's like sport, you try out for a team and make it, you're all happy and excited to tell everyone and once you do, they all tell you that it's not a good team and with those words you quit the team. 

It's just not right. 

I'm not saying that denying something is wrong, but if all you talk about and think about is him then you really can't make words take that away. The feelings are there and that's why you do the things you do, but once someone goes against you, you're automatically not interested by word but not by heart. 

"No. He's just my inspiration." -DenDen.

No, you know what? Those were probably the most hurtful thing she's ever said. For a reason that you all that are reading probably may not agree with but srsly, if you were in my situation then you'd most probably feel the same way..

Why was it hurtful? 

Well, as I said before, in my eyes, it's not right to deny your feelings with someone... And it makes me feel as if DenDen's underestimating my knowledge on  life, and I personally HATE it when people do that. I may be younger than you but you have no right to think that I am below you because I tell you, I'm more mature than I often act. 

(HATE is a strong word and I don't use that often but you can probably tell how much I dislike what she did to me)

Now you guys may be like: "I don't see what's so bad about it, I mean, A girl likes a guy.. Get over it."

Personally, and for most of the people I've talked to, say that it's wrong too. I'll give you a senario:

A 19-yr-old girl has a crush on a 14-year-old guy. All she ever does is try to get closer to him and tries to give him signs that she wants to be more than friends. She wants to take things quickly, for a reason, nobody knows but her. Although she's experienced damaging heartbreaks before, of the same thing (the guy she dated found another girl), she's still quick to get into a relationship. But it seems as if he wants to take it slow, after all, they've only started talking to each other 3 days ago and before that, they were just another person on the Planet. 

I'm sorry to say it, but that's not a scenario.. It's what's happening with Den and Dew.

"Age is just a number or a word, who really cares? If they both like each other then there's no reason to stop love from happening, right?" 

I'm not trying to stop them from getting together though. I mean, if they did then I'm happy for Den. But I just really want to say something to her. 

As I said before, she's experienced heartbreak and she's come to her friends for help durin gher time of sorrow but when her friends tell her that she should find the right guy before jumping into a relationship, she ignores it. Isn't that wrong in itself? 

She's given the comfort she needed yet, she doesn't want to accept advice to stop it from happening again. She gives everyone a shot.. She doesn't look at the bigger picture and analyse every detail of the human being before she starts to develop feelings for them. I know this is harsh but, she's one of those girls that once love is there, her brain leaves. 

I know that she's sensitive to words and I don't want to hurt her, I still want to stay as friends. But I srsly, am about to burst. Now I've got one BIG decision to make: 

Do I tell her now whilst I'm still calm so I can choose my words wisely or do I wait for my bubble to pop and let the words that come out of my mouth land on her ears (lemme tell you this usually doesn't end well)?

It's a harder decision than you think bc either way, she's going to get hurt.