life . i guess lol
life sometimes. heh?
sometimes i feel useless and such
other times i'm just all happy and thankful for being alive.
right now, i'm feeling quite empty and lonely
i just miss my best friends and i want to see them badly
i could get to see them this saturday but...
things complicated somehow and i don't think i can see them until next time.
sigh. i don't know if i'm going through depression again
but i can feel it; i'm just really sad, annoyed and depressed these days
but i'm trying to control it. i went through depression once
and i don't want to go through another chapter of depression again.
i feel like crying and i just don't know what to do with life right now, honestly
hmmm.. it . it really is.
what i'm worrying the most is my future
in my family situations right now, i don't think i can fulfill my dreams somehow
and that . i don't know when can i go back studying again and it really .
i did not get to study anything for about almost 2 years now and woah, it . lol
i stayed in my house all day and just surfing the internet like a lifeless person.
my vision got more blur from staring too much at the computer
but i can't help it as seeing my oppas makes me smile,
i feel dumb, having low self-esteem and lack of confidence.
ughhhhh so frustrating. i totally envy people having a good life haha
i don't feel motivated nor inspired unlike i used to
i remember being very hyper and bright back then but now
i'm like, noooo to everything lol. i just wanna stay trap in my
own little bubble aka my room and just do everything alone.
i became an introvert eversince and i feel safe and comfortable
in my own room.
*makes a super ugly face* alright, i think i need to find something
that'll brighten up my day and hopefully, things will be good somehow?
gahhhhhh if only i have superpower, i think my life will be good lol
reality . life . but really, life isn't but what i'm
going through is . \(TuT)/ < / / 3
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