My mom again, this poison.

Well... I'm doing again with my mom... That mom who didn't take care of me, that mom who didn't care about me...

 

This time she's angry at my grand-parents... Well, they aren't really my grandparents because they're are my step-father's parents... But I consider them as my grand-parents, my precious people... Those grand-parents who healed me when I was sick... Those grand-parents who met my teachers when my mom was too occupied with her hair style... Those grand-parents who fed me while my mom was too lazy to prepare food for me... 

Mom, you're selfish. I wish you could not be my mother. I prayed that you wouldn't get any other children but you did... 

She prevents me and my brothers from seeing my grand-parents while they live at ing 3 minutes away from the house... She prevents us to be happy...

It makes me so sick and sad when I put my baby brother in my granma's arms and that you violently take him back. When it happens, I want to hold your throat until you die. Maybe that way you'd feel what I feel... 

You've no right to do this. You hold your own children captive and use them at your advantage. But we'renot your ing toys. You don't deserve to have children. You don't deserve to be happy.

Someday we will take our revenge. I know it's bad, I mean revenge is bad, it's better to pardon people. But we can't pardon you. It's too much suffering and tears... It's too much anger and sadness... And you don't deserve our pardon. 

I will live far away from you, and if I get any child in my life, you won't ever see him.

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aurums #1
Hey there im not good at giving advice but one thing for sure is I'll pry for your happiness so you can pass your hardest time without tears (:
hotshotsowon #2
i hope you're ok now.. just try to ignore whatever your mother is doing and concentrate being happy with your life.don't let her affect you.
Toto_Mao
#3
Hey. If she treat bad to you, just don't ever mind what she did to you. I talk here as a PEOPLE to PEOPLE, not daughter/son to Parents, ok. Noted this please. If she hit you, cursing you as sth real bad, don't mind to said what you think to her, well maybe screaming or just calmly voice. Don't do thing like 'I hate you so I will curse you secretly in my mind' or similar. Do things that makes she SCARE at you, ok?
You could PM for privately talking since I am in your situation too, being in a house with my dad, which to be, I never likes him.
story19 #4
hi, mybelovedtaeny... forgive your mother though she is not asking for it, she is still your mother... do not linger yourself from hatred and revenge, but think more of your future, a beautiful and hopeful tomorrow... fighting!!! take a leap of faith of making yourself happy and making your dreams come true... everything will be fine, all is well.
satorules
#5
Wanna PM me We can talk it outs ben though i don't know you but I was in a similar situation to so penny for a thought? But if you don't want to then well.......Your gonna have to but you don't have to tell me full details but know i'm willing to help talk you through this so please PM me but i do respect your decision if you don't want to. but just know even though your life isn't going do well and it's kind of bumpy just know that we're human and we do make mistakes and cause/get unwanted scars that weren't even suppose to be there in the first place eventually after all this has pass there will always be that day where you had to go through some crappy time in life in order to receive the happy ending you wanted or something that became a memory or motivation for you to stand up for who you are and become strong and independent and try to prevent history from repeating itself in the future but also take note that the scars will be there but it will be worth it later on the future so just bare with it till the time of your happiness comes and embraces you to a better future with the people you love and cherish. and also even though your mom is kinda being a you know hat you can hate her and take revenge on her but is it really worth it like seriously she may act like she hates you but deep down she loves you but doesn't want to show it or she's protective over you or she's stressed out but she was the one who gave birth to you and your siblings cause no matter she is your mother the one who made you guys exist in this world..You can hate her but once you realize that every things too late you'll miss her and you yourself will breakdown so re-organize your thought on revenge and take in my advice and PM if there is any more problems cause I will always be the person who will ask you " A penny for a thought my dear friend?"
jayninsone_soshi9
#6
maybe your mom has a reasoned.try to talk to your mom. :)

everythings gonna be alright-KTY
sshminjeong
#7
I think your mom just feel protective of you. Someday you'll realize how important is it to have a mother. She might be bad than the others, but no parents want any child to suffer. They all want the best. :)
Sicachu143
#8
Don't thnk b0uT revenge. Wateva it may b she's stil ur m0m. Try 2 b da bettr pers0n. If u hate her n treat her bAd, ur being lyk her. Be da bigger pers0n. N dn't gv up. 1day she'l realise her wr0ng d0ings. Just h0ld oN n wait 4 dat day 2 c0me. N wen dat day c0mes 4gv her. To err is human, 2 4gv is divine. Lyf ain't a bed of r0ses, its ful of th0rns. We jst find da r0ses in btwn.
xolovestephi309 #9
dont hate your mom :) dont treat your mom bad, your child might treat you the way you treat yout mom. life must go on. face it. god bless you :)
BlacknBlue_77
#10
Someday you'll realize the importance of your mother and someday your mother will realize the same.
Justified
#11
i'm don't know what to say but she is still your mom anyway, she give your life if not happy life like everyone but you can make your own happy don't hate her if you hate her more you the one who suffer not her.

I have not had an experience like you, but I went through a bad period in my life as well. Divorced parents And at that time I was a teenager But I'm trying to learn And find time to be with myself .When going back It was the former who gives me strength. Now the person I love most in my life is my mother is dead I was left with my father who had betrayed the family and my sister. But I also think that he is my father. Truth is The undeniable

i'm hope you will storger and the horrible thing is go away like wind.
kawakitanawo #12
you shouldn't think like that, hating her is giving her too much attention. You should prove her that her actions and words don't affect you, even if it does... I have a similar relationship with my father, but I try to ignore him most of the time, and it usually works; but meanwhile stop thinking like that, don't let her break you smile. :))
SoshiHeaven
#13
Don't make bad decisions, you will regret it later, no matter what. Hold on a little more, just a little more and you will be free soon. Don't wish anything bad to your mom, like I told you - you will somehow regret it later in life.
This is just a part of your life, the rest of it will be so much better later on. Think about positive things in life and focus just on that.
Remember, you only live for once. I don't mean that you have to go YOLO with everything, just do what you enjoy!

Well, I at writing this kinds of things. But I really wants to help you somehow.
Anne8501
#14
Sorry I get typo, no matter how much I hate my mother ^^

I do hate her, until last year
we settle things up and we're good

I'm 28 yo
and she is still tempted to hit me ^^
Anne8501
#15
Dear,
Your last words... you'll turn exactly like your mother...
And, no matter how much you hate her. She's forever your mother.
Blood is thicker than water.
Trust me, revenge is not a best solution. Be a better person than your mother.
I might not understand what you had been through...
But I survived from my abusive mother.
I love her, she is the reason I am now.
Not matter how much I hate you.

Be a better person than your mother.
Don't repeat the bad luck cycle... please.