Today is such a long day. Practice for upcoming Japan Tour and of course, for weekly music shows. New dance and singing in Japanese make me twice exhausted than before. For some member, like Seungyoon and Taehyun, it wouldn’t big deal, but for me, it’s hard. Sure. I try hard to not disappoint our member.

Yeah, we all heard about that. The issue that involving Taehyun spread so fast and we received a lot of bad comments. That’s made everyone super sensitive since this morning. No joking around, no teasing with each other. We did our schedule like dead people forced to life again. No soul.

I just finished wash my face then I heard Mino’s voice in the living room.

“I know this will happen soon or later. But I don’t know it will come so early, 5 days after we debuted. If we get any trouble because of this, this is your fault. You should be careful next time.”

“Mino-yah…”

Oh, there’s Seungyoon too.

“Anyway, YG called us to go to his office tomorrow at 10. Let’s face it together”

Seungyoon always do that. He such a best leader.

“If only you obedient to delete all your sns account like what we did, this wouldn’t happen. Ah. Great, we got our first scandal in our debut month. Congratulation WINNER. Hahaha”

Mino’s voice sound so shaky. He must be so mad right now.

I wear my sleeveless shirt and ready to go to living room to joined their ‘meeting’ even without saying anything. I didn’t that good in make an advice or something. Beside, I don’t what to say. Then, suddenly I heard someone slammed the door.

“ I’ll go to find him. I’ll try to calm him down.”

Seunghoon.

“ No hyung. Let him alone for now.”

2.45 am

I can’t sleep. Seungyoon has slept beside me, I wonder how he could sleep in this situation. Ah, He must be so tired. I put my hood and ready to walk out then suddenly Seungyoon’s voice startled me.

“Where are you going hyung?”

“you haven’t sleep yet?”

“I can’t sleep. Where are you going?”

“C-convenience store”

Seungyoon looking at me with his ‘at-this-time?’ eyes.

“I’m hungry” I try to look at his eyes.

His eyes changed into ok-hyung-i-know-you-were-lying.

“If you find Taehyun outside, please bring him back. It must be so cold outside”

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There are a small park beside our dorm building with 2 couple benches. You know, bench that only fit for two people. We called them couple bench. I see Taehyun sitting on that bench with his eyes closed. I know he cried a lot. I sit beside him. Still without any word.

“If you want to scold me, go on. After you finished, you can go back and sleep. We have packed schedule tomorrow hyung, you should sleep”

he didn’t looking at me while speaking.

“No. I just want to sit here. Just do your own thing, I’ll just sit here silently. Just ignore me” I try to act as cool as Seungyoon. I can say I do it well.

Silent.

5minutes.

10 minutes.

Taehyun stay still with his eyes closed. So do I.

15 minutes.

“Hyung!”

Omaya, this kid almost make me fell from the bench. Why suddenly yelled at me?

“hm?”

“I ruined our group just right after we started”

“I even ruined our group before we start anything. JYP remember? I know what you feel…”

“No hyung, compare to forgot lyrics, this issue are ten times worse than that”

His voice getting slow each word.

“You know, at that time, I feel like a loser. I couldn’t even lift my head up in front of you all. I thought, If YG kicked me out that time, I will give up in this dream, and maybe shaved my head up and gong to military, you know to hiding from everyone. Remember when I went to his office alone, he told me not to give up on my dream. He scold me of course.”

Taehyun-ah, you know what I mean right?

“There are always second chance. As long as you not giving up on your dream, sajangnim will help you. Let’s go to his office together tomorrow and tell him what actually happened”

Quite again.

“hyung…”

He cried again. Aigoo ottokae?

“hyung, do you believe that news?”

“I don’t know. Well, the iljin boy they were talking about are beside me right now so-”

“I did.”

Quite. I don’t know what to say again. Seungyoon-ah…. Help.

“I did it. Yes. They forced me to move to another school. Yes. I fight with another student“

“Why u do that?”

Stupid. Why I asked that?

“If I didn’t do that…. They bullied me. I do that because of my friend. They—“

“Taehyun-ah…” This is so heartbreaking. I can’t hear any words from him again.

“Taehyun-ah…. Lets explain it to sajangnim tomorrow. We will help you. Even if that true, sajangnim will help you too. You are a superstar now. You are the one of the best singer in YG. Sajangnim will help you to clear this up. Trust me”

Taehyun looking at me with his popular eyebrows.

“Thank you hyung”

“hm….”

He still sit there silently with empty eyes.

“are you hungry?” What kind of question is that? Jinwoo-yah, you stupid!

“no hyung”

“Lets back to dorm then”

“No, I still want to sit here”

“Lets have some snack then, I’m hungry”

“No”

“Soju?”

Taehyun looking at me.

“Soju and kimchi jigae….and kimbap”

“heh?” I’m confused here. First he said he wasn’t hungry, why suddenly…?

“ I said I want kimchi jigae, kimbap and soju”

Then he smile. This is the best moment in my life. I can make he smile in his hard day. I made it!!

“Lets go! Haha. Now I believe that article 100% that you are such a bad boy when you’re at school. You just rob me. (sigh)”

And he laughed. Omg.

 Taehyun-ah, when you have any problem, don’t  forget you have 4 hyungs here. You can share it with us, ok I aint that  mature like  seunghoon, aint good in giving advice like seungyoon, aint cool like mino. But my ear are always ready for you. For everyone. Please treat us like your real hyung, we are family right? We will face this trouble together, lets holding hand and reach our dream together. Forever.