Let's just say I'm a frustated teenager who wanted to live like how female protagonists from mangas, animes and dramas lived. The usual orphaned little girl who gets bullied, lives in a worn appartment always being chased by the owner for the bills, rides a bicycle to school, that kind. I don't know but my life is way to far from that. Just wishful thinking. I keep on thinking what would that kind of life feel, which is the reason why I am pouring down everything I want over my fan fictions. I just want to feel what it feels to a protagonist, a character striving for her life, goes to school in the morning, goes to work at night, has a younger sibling to raise. And then she meets the boy that will take her life away from her, but before that happens, he'll let her feel misery first. 

Sometimes I think these things were romantic and wonders what it would be like in real life. As I ponder more about it, the more I realize it would be awful living like that. It would somehow distort the way I see life as it is. It would make me see how cruel the world is, why I was orphaned at a young age, why I'd have to strive wherein it shouldn't be my place to do so. But who knows, it might give me a godd self balance. But I shouldn't worry, after a few years, when I'm working, I know I'll be experiencing life on my own too. Using the bus for transportation, or rather my own bicycle. Doing my own laundry, cooking my own food, passing out on meals. I'll do that someday.