Listen to me please; I wake up every day hoping that someday things would change but knowing that I would be the one to change my life. I go through the motions like it was nothing but hoping someone would see me the real me. Not someone that they think they see.

 

I don’t know who I can confine in.

 

I don’t know what is keeping me from being kind.

 

I don’t know when I can trust someone.

 

I don’t know where I can find myself.

 

I don’t know why I feel the need to hide.

 

I don’t know how I can truly save myself.

 

I don’t know how I can let the real me come out.

 

Is it because I am afraid or is it because I am just weak?

 

I shut out all of my emotions. So that I can function “properly” and live a normal life but, what is normal there is no such thing as normal is there? Doing so is not enough anymore I want to break out, I want to make someone listen, I want to try to make someone understand what I am feeling. But I am afraid, why am I so afraid?

 

Why can’t I trust people anymore?

Is it because once I trust someone, they always end up letting me down.

 

Why can’t I make someone listen?

 

Are you hearing me?

 

Why don’t you listen to me?

 

Why can’t I make you understand?

 

The pain I am feeling every day, the suffering that I am in. I just don’t want to always be sad. I want someone to save me from this misery I call my life.

 

Are you there?

Are you listening?

Do you understand now? How I feel?

 

How I can I possibly save myself?

I tell myself it would get better but, lately it just gotten worse.

 

I wondering will I see the light again? Will you help me?

I am asking you to help me, please help me please. Before it’s all too late.

---

>> I'm just tired with my life. I want to scream. I want to escape. I want to runaway.