This is actually just some sad, overly-dramatic and whiny ranting

It does include a sensitive topic but I don't mean to offend anybody or anything for that matter at all through this blog post ><

So school finally ended for me today and when I reached home the first thing I thought of was "I'm going to finish at least 2 chapters of my fanfiction during the holidays" because I no longer had excuses to not write anything. I've kept all my subscribers waiting for too long, right?

But tonight as I opened my word document to continue where I had left off I realize -- I'm writing about a broken pairing. 

Calling Krisyeol a 'broken' pairing hurts enough but what hurts even more is the fact that we will never see the moments we've seen before of them being together -- I realize that I've taken those little (but most definitely precious) interactions for granted and I'd do anything just to see them stand next to each other in the usual EXO position lineups and say their slogan. 

Do you remember during their first months of debuting, Chanyeol would follow Kris (or Wufan, now) everywhere like a lost puppy? Or that one event where Krisyeol had dirty blonde hair and Wufan had fed Chanyeol something after Chanyeol read the fortune cookie for him? And we can't forget that the Happy Virus title really shined during the Mama era. It was hard to spot Chanyeol not grinning like a maniac. This was the era where our ship bloomed. 

And then we get to Wolf/Growl era -- the whole puppylike hyung-dongsaeng relationship between them (where Chanyeol really looked up to Wufan and followed him around) was gone and now Chanyeol treated him like an equal -- like a really close best friend instead of a sunbae. The Happy Virus wasn't really there anymore but in exchange we got to see the real Park Chanyeol -- through variety shows and radio broadcasts.

God, rewatching Showtime gives me an absolute heartache. I can't even start on that one...

But my point is, I still can't accept the fact that we may never be able to see moments like these between Krisyeol again -- and it's just too hard to take in. 

And seeing more and more Krisyeol authors leaving each day and seeing lesser and lesser fanfiction being updated daily makes me want to take a break off of EXO as a whole. I've gone on hiatus on Tumblr and now I'm just basking in anime because nothing in anime hurts!! >u<

But don't worry! I'm never going to stop shipping Krisyeol because once I've started loving something it will be almost impossible for me to stop. And I know many Krisyeol fans out there are going through a hard time right now, and it may sound stupid to be upset over a fan pairing that most probably doesn't exist in real life, but if it brings happiness to others then it doesn't matter how delusional a person gets, right? (well, as long as they're not causing harm to other people or being extremely annoying, of course. haha haha hahaaaa)

So I want to encourage the shippers out there to stay if a ship makes you happy, and leave if it doesn't. Don't force yourself to leave or to stay (because so far I think that's the case for us KY shippers right now) because it'll just hurt. Shipping is a fun thing that goes in the fandom and that is all it will ever be.

So stay strong, alright?! ^O^