hey, it's been a while. lmao. feel free to like ignore this post. this is like a life rant kinda thing. heh. something you'll get bored with. okay? okay. yes, tfios is out. i have yet to watch it. here comes the ranting...

i was supposed to watch it today, with a friend of mine ( a guy; if you were wondering. ). but i couldn't go 'cause like it's ramadhan and it's not nice to be going out with a guy and i'm like at sg and i could drive to kl but he didn't want to tire me out since we're fasting and all. but i just feel so bad. i mean, we both planned it ever since the start. and jace, if you're reading... sorry to say but you're the second date for tfios. bloop is the first okay? ehehe. we were suppose to go on double dates. me and him and my friend with his friend. his friend even booked the ticket, oh gosh. guilty imnida. so, i whatsapped him last night and said that i'm still in sg and i feel like it's inappropriate to do so or of sorts.

so i told him that he could just take someone else with him instead and i'll just watch it another time. and he goes, "i'm not going. why would i bring someone else as my date when you're my date? if it's still showing during eidul fitr, we'll sneak a day and watch it together okay?" so i was like, are you sure bout it? you could just go if you wanna. then he said, "why should i go if i'll be watching it alone? no, we'll watch it together okay?"

do you feel my guilt? sobs. both of us read the book and i always called him augustus waters 'cause his birthday is quite near to ansel elgort and like, he's such a gentleman. oh, and no, we're not together if you're confused. ahaha. i just feel extremely bad rn. we chatted earlier and he sounds so down. crying here. sobs. i mean, who wouldn't be disappointed right? we planned it ever since the announcement that a movie would be made came out. yeah, we were that excited. eheh.

i hope we'd get a chance to watch it. cries.