hum... does people need to changes? i dont know.. but i love her, but what im see now, she may not love me anymore like before, when we are together, she dont want me to hold her hand like before, i dont know what to do, she always said that she want me to become her friend that can believe in her? why? did now she think of me like her friend? but what we had before? is that nothing to her? where is 'i love you too' and i miss u that she always said before? what happened to the promised that we made before, the one that you said that you were only mine till forever.. where does it goes, is it because our long distance relationship for 5 years make you change this much, even if you doesnt love me anymore,please tell me, even it hurts me so much, but to tell you the truth, i cant even move on from u, even a tiny bit, maybe because when i made a promise with you, my heart keep you locked hard in my heart, its sad being this way.. because i love you for real, when im say those word, im already make my heart just for you...and now, you ask me to forget everything that we had before, and stay as a friend...its easy for you, but not for me, how we can be friend, when we once have been more than that?? i keep asking myself, why cant i move on, why i keep hurting myself by waiting and loving you now, when im know that you already have move on from our memories...y??? why...sometimes, i think, maybe i should die, so that this hurt feeling not disturb me anymore, but it just something stupid, i know that...but everytime i see ur pictures, im always hope that i will die first before i see u walking on the altar with someone else, because before this, you already be mine, but not today, future?? can i still have hope that you will fall in love with me again in the future, i dont know anymore..i love you, yes i love you so much, i hope you will remember this word that im always tell you forever...im sorry because i cant be perfect for you, maybe thats why u doesnt need me in your life anymore... :(