okay this is like my first time ever write this bloggy thing hm but i just dont know where to express this. Im the type who keep things to myself but this thing is just like idk? I cant hold it anymore.

do you ever feel like hate someone but that person keep on showing that they are good to be friend and so you finally open up to them. But when you does that, when you finally like that person, they leave. I know its like so normal but no its not. Idk how to say this but im kinda like him so much and i almost broke up with my boyfriend. yes, my boyfriend knew his existence and strongly disagree the idea of me being friend with him. But being friendly i am, i ignored what my boyfriend told me. 

finally when i got like soooo far into him, he started to stayed away from me. Less text like always and also a 'hi'. idk why he act all like that. Oh well yeah he do aware i have boyfriend but all his respond was like its okay i still have a chance youre not married thou. until that one fine day im kinda saw his tweet with this other girl and im like okay nvm. but then i realised one thing day by day. theres something going on between them. 

first, idc if he want to hv gf or what bcs we're just friends but it hurts that he treat me that way. he made me fought with my boyfriend bcs of him. he just wasted all the trust i start to built for him. 

idk what to act normal bcs we're in the same class and everytime i wish i didnt see his face, i will >< and i have to live like this for another three years u___u help