it honestly feels quite sad to say this,but i'm falling out of kpop and aff.it just seems as i cant keep up anymore,you know? during the last two weeks,my laptop wouldn't work.i was terrified because my laptop is my kingdom and empire to kpop.but let me stop right there and explain why i would be terrified-during my school year,i was freaking out because my laptop wouldn't work.because i had so many roleplays to worry about,i wanted to work on developing my layouts skills and possibly launching my poster shop.and right on that, i had school work to worry about,i had my sister's graduation,my family problems and then kpop scandals and news weren't making my life any better.but you know what? i didn't mind because my whole life revolve around kpop. what i didn't know that i was stressing my self out more and more everyday by just pushing away my problems and letting kpop take over.i blared everything and everyone out,i blared even myself out. i wasn't happy. every smile felt forced and my hyperness seemed like something that can be taken away in a matter of seconds.my mood and perspective of life was so..down the drain? all i saw was black and white,i became a dull and depressed person. well until two weeks ago,my laptop shutted down as i mention above.my laptop shutted down,didn't work.nada.now i was expecting myself to freak out and etc,but i didn't.shocker really.i was able to get so many things done,and i was able to go outside and enjoy the simplest pleasures that nature could offer me. i even got time to play with my dog and just got a chance to play a good ole game of fetch with her.i was able to go to the park and picnic with my family and friends.and then at nights,i was able to sit around with my siblings and cousins.we would just sit and do puzzles like theres no tomorrow,and we just talk and stay up all night.hell,i even got to talk and have a legit convo with my parents.i even had girls night out with my mom and spend the day watching the world cup with my dad,i was able to realize the these were the things i was able to do if i wasn't cooped up in my room all day,and this would be lie if i told you that i didn't want to spend much time on my laptop anymore.but it's just the fact that i realize that when i stop looking at the computer screen all day and just walk out my room and talk,my life moved in a faster and much more positive pace.i was finally happy again,my smiles were real and my laugh came from pure joy.this probably won't matter as much to you because you know life will move on but i just wanted to express what i been feeling for these past few weeks. i'm not gonna stop liking kpop or getting on aff all together but i won't be no longer an avid fan of kpop,nether an active user on aff.i just hope you guys can understand what i'm trying to put through and anyways,thank you for reading this and understanding!it was nice making friends on here from the era of 2011-2014. it was nice meeting all you wonderful people and i hope you will have a great future!