las time i check i was questioning the earth why did he give me a life like this?

then i ask why me?(not that i have a very serious illness. im just exagerating. bear with me)

why?

why?

then i found some thing i can call my drive to do usefull things.

then misfuretune cam

whys the univers never agree to me cant you just let me be happy and make my silly dreams came true its just a simple dream not even that great why cant you give me this. just this one  be on my side and please  be my allie  just this one give me this one i promise to do my one hundread persent best to excell just support me in this one i really need this please univers have mercy on me im not asking to win the lottery like i use to ask you just this let me have this i swear to do every thing in my power to be the best i swear cuz i dont know what else to do after this i dont know what to do anymore im losing it...........i think im on my limit now i dont know what else to do books dont make me happy anymore and im losing ,my drive to go on help me please i dont know what else to do....