I kissed a girl earlier. I can't breathe!!! Her Eos mint and somehow honey tasting lips tasted amazing. I was so nervous I felt like dying. But after a while I could not even control myself!! She looks so youthful and seemed to glow when she saw the fireworks. Even though she is quite young and so am I. The way the color bursted in the reflection of her green eyes. My fav color! just ached me. If I did not use this moment I would never forgive myself. Gah, she was just so cute and child-like which is unlike her. Her smile beamed. At the finale I felt kind of rushed. But she just hung on my arm jumping around cutely getting excited. If you guys knew her past you would never expect her to smile again. I'm happy I can make her smile like that. I called her name shakely and she just looked up and smiled at me I swear it felt like she stabbed me. Finally I grabbed onto her wrist and pulled her into a kiss. It was short but more than a peck. I would say 6 seconds but the world stopped so I had no track of time. Two medium speed turns. After all it was a first kiss (and last I'm afraid) I told her how I felt and she seemed bewildered. Seriously for the past months I have been SO jealous. I think I have threatened to kill about every guy facebook, g+ and any other guy friend she has. I thought she had somewhat an idea of how I felt. I did not even know how to put it into words. I like to pick on her cuz I like her just like any other guy. I feel like any other guy just wants her for her love (u know what kind) but I am so willing to wait until marriage. Heck if she wants to stay a forever I would love that. If I do not get to see her in the morning (run in and jump on her till she wakes up XD) My whole routine for the day is destroyed.  i feel like I am too old for her: Jan, 14 2000 and I was born in 1998. oh and she is so close to my parents it scares me. My Dad was driving her home and he bunched up his JJ wrapper and threw it at a garbage can he was laughing and happy all day! Like I was saying earlier. I don't even mind if she does not love me (I do it would hurt REALLY bad.) But if not me I want to see her with someone decent. I AM A GUY! WHY AM I THINKING LIKE THIS?? AND AT MIDNIGHT!!