It's just a random blog post about me and SLEEP PARALYSIS.
If you don't know what is sleep paralysis, you can go search it on google xD
A bit info about it, sleep paralysis is when you're not totally awake, but you're not dreaming too. You're awake at the same place and in the same situation you are in (I meant, if you're in bedroom with your teddy next to you, you'll wake up in the same position). But you can't move your body even if you try so hard and you can't speak, you know how suffocated is that?
And also you feel heavy on your chest as if there's something on your chest. And the most terrible part when you start seeing scary thing around you, well, I think I don't have to tell you the exact thing of the 'scary thing', right?
They kept on approaching around you, but yet you can't do nothing. Your mind is normal, you can scream through your mind, you can think whatever you want, but you're numbed. Sometimes, there are voices whispering into your ears, calling your name.
Then, you suddenly wake up and feel tired like hell from struggling to move your body and let out your voice in the not-so-dream,
That's what I've been through.

I'm one of the 'victim' of sleep paralysis for almost 3 years already. If you're one of the 'victim', you know how scary it is.
It's traumatic. Mostly, it happened on night, but also during the day.

For the first time I experienced this thing, I had no idea what it was, but it was really really really scary and even I was sleeping with my older sister at that time, I couldn't go to sleep back after that. After I woke up, I was totally confused, was I dreaming? But why it felt so real? And I was at the same place? And my sister was also next to me, slept so peacefully. I tried hard to move my hands and scream for help from my sister, but I couldn't.

Sometimes it happened very often, also sometimes it happened few times in one night. When it happened, then I went to sleep again, after I managed to calm down, but it happened again for the second time, sometimes third.

I started telling my friends two years ago when I heard they were talking about spirit and ghost. So, I thought I was being disturbed by 'something', but why?

I think it's a year ago, last year. I was twittering and scrolling through the TL and I saw a post from minddictionary or something like that, I didn't remember. It was telling about sleep paralysis, and then I started to search for it. I found many posts about it, I started with wiki.

And yeah, the info is exactly like what I've been through, so I knew that I'm having sleep paralysis.

A scientific research said it is because the rapid movement of our eyes.

A few statements said it does related to... you know... spirits. But I'm not believing in that, I don't want to! It's too scary to think about it.

You guys are lucky to know about me having this because my family doesn't know about it. Even my besties. I'm closed with my family, but I never talk to them so much, we're just joking together, but to talk about serious thing or heart-to-heart, hell no.

I'm still in my holiday since december last year, college will be started on 1st July. Thanks God, during my holiday, I only went through it less than 5 times.

I read about its cure, one of it says to have a healthy sleeping habit, but I don't think it's the cure. because before, I had a pretty good sleeping habit because I was a student back then, I sleep early and woke up to school.

Another cure is taking pills, actually there's no cure for this 'illness'. I really want to at least tell my mum about it, but... we lack of communication, I do have times to talk to her. It's just.. I went mute and Idk how to start. 

I only started to sleep by myself in my own bedroom since two months ago, before, I slept in my older sister's bedroom with her. Everytime that happened, I was eager to tell my sister, but ended up saying nothing.

So, umm.. anyone here having the same problem with me?