Hi

It's been a while hasn't it, dear reader? I'm not sure, but I haven't had the inclination to right for quite some time now. Is it because I do not have that many readers? Or is it because I've hit some sort of writer's block in general? Or is it simply that K-pop has become too much of a bane to me...an insignificant existence in my life?

I thought this until two days ago. Two days ago, it suddenly occurred to me - as if the proverbial pen spalshed ink on my face -  I have not been and never had been a writer. At least, one after attaining puberty. A seemingly harmless mail sent ripples through my very being. Am I writer? Who is a writer? How do you know that you are a writer?

And the answer is simple. It's not the want to write that makes me a writer. It's the obsessive need. It is not a paragraph of well-strung words that make you a writer. But scribbling on whatever you have your sudden thoughts, introspection and emotions without any inhibitions. 

Readers don't make you want to write. Your very being, that twitch amongst your fingers that gives you the need to write.

I know all of this seems so haphazardly organized. But that's beside the point. From now on, I will write not because of k-pop idols, not because of flattering comments and upvotes, or the possibility of my story being featured, but because I write. 

I will write because I write.