hey guys. T T so I heard about Baekhyun and Taeyeon's relationship... and I was sad.

lemme tell you wat happened.

first, on wednesday this week it was 18th of June 2014, I got an injection on my left arm. it was the anti tetanus.. idk what it is in english, but i'll try to explain it. it was like if you got a metal rusty thing that you stepped on or made you injured, you will get an injection which was the anti-tetanus thingies. bad english. maybe

so I was sick after that, and i don't know maybe it was the side effect or maybe I was allergic to it (i don't have an allergic that's what I know)

my throat hurt. and I've been acting like a mute because I can't talk.

the next day, I attended school feeling sick. the time that i got home and the wifi I got a message from my sister sayig that Taeyeon and Baekhyun were dating. Of course, I felt sad and I doubt that it was not real. I thought she was joking so I felt less sad that day.

On midnight I checked the news, and it was true. I was devastated. I felt normal then suddently I felt really sad, that I cried from midnight until 2:39 a.m. Waw. I was sick and started to miss all of them on the same day and suddenly there was this news. I got insomnia and fall asleep on 2:39 a.m.

the next day, on friday, i didn't go to school because I was sick. yeah, so i felt like going to fall each time I thought about it. On friday afternoon,when my mom was driving my sister back to her (my) school, i was at my room on that time. I suddenly cried so loud. And when my mom got homeat first she didn't notice it then my voice begin to sound louder and louder until she was worried and asked me why. I didn't answer her and cried. she asked "which part of your body was hurt?" she asked me several of question. there was one thing she thought that it was her fault for ot sending me to the hospital.. So the last time she asked me which part that hurts and I pointed my chest while crying and said, "THIS PART! *SOBSOBSOB*.

Eventually I went to the nearest clinic and i was told that my throat was bengkak ( how to say this) it.. was swollen. yes and it's pretty bad and I have to take two medcine three times a day. 

that night, i was dreaming and I'm pretty sure when I'm dreaming I was on a fever. so now i'm still sick and I'm on hiatus. I started to accept baekhyun and taeyon's relationship and I think their relationship will last until 5 moths? I guess? idk don't blame me if its true. 

so..... conclusion: i don't like the new couple but i'm not going to perform suicide even if i don't like it. I just... i don't really adore Taeyeon, and I prefer with other artist that i like. btw, i let it slide because that's the reality. Now i'm still on hiatus but i think i will recover as soon as i can. still sad though

adios and love,

dumbee.