Should I start my blog with one happy greeting?

Or would it be convincing if I directly tell you guys how upset I am?

Last month, May 16, 2014 was a Kris issue that brought my heart in to the warp. Kris is not my number one bias but Kris is my number one inspiration for my stories. I kept telling myself, "think positive, be positive," or, "move on, it's not only Kris that has have you writing."

I moved on - partially.

I saved a story (a two-shot) in my drafts folder. It was a story inspired by a movie. A story that casts my two-top ranking OTPs, Kris and Nana, and G-Dragon and Taeyeon.

I told myself, "I will upload it once three months pass," as there's this 3-month rule before you can dedicate yourself onto another person and finally move on, and I hold onto that silly rule.

It's only a month that passed and Taeyeon's dating news come to a light.

What broke my heart into pieces is not her dating someone else but my OTPs.

I was confident that Kris and Nana would get some intimate moments by using Chanyeol because of Roommate (that Chanyeol will bridge them together).

I was confident that the rumor before where Dispatch would finally release a couple dating between YG and SM artists would be G-Dragon and Taeyeon.

Confidence will always give you hope but it can fail you - as it did with me.

I learned that my OTPs are mere fantasies. I can only think of them but not see them happen. Chances of them would be together is 0.01%.

But I remember what athletes do, never give up. Keep thriving. We may lose the competition now, but it only teaches to do our best.

And this is why positivity reigns over me as it will always be. That a possibility can actually come true.. That 0.01% weighs more than perfect 0.

Kris and Nana may not meet now, since Kris will be doing a separate activity with EXO and less chances of him will he stay in Korea, but the thought that Nana will be going to China in August to host a variety show sparked my heart that "Ah~ These can finally meet and make babies." (Yes. I skipped the and went towards the ending. A beautiful ending that I always see them together as - with their kids.). If not this year, 2015, 2016, 2017, and succeeding years, can actually be their year and years.

Taeyeon and G-Dragon may not be dating now, but future can tell that they may end up soon, just not now.

Like what everyone always say, "Patience is a virtue."

Call me one very delusional fan. But that's how my mind works, being delusional as it can be. ;)

Keeping my fingers crossed, I wish that in case my third OTP, Chanyeol and Lizzy, would be the next breaking news, it would be one that will inspire me to embrace the OTPs I have. (Check out my profile to see the list of my OTPs).