My GTAE Heart :(

Yesterday after my shift, I checked my facebook account for some notifications from my friends and also some kpop news. But an unexpected news came out. BAEKHYUN and TAEYEON is dating. I lost my soul for a moment. I just sit for a while then look blankly at my ipad. "Is this real?" "Taeyeon? Really?".

I really love Girls Generation and I also love the news of them dating. They have their own life. We don't own them. We never own them. Everyone is entitle to experience falling in love and be in a relationship. When Yoona and Lee Seunggi confirmed to be dating, I was really happy. I really like them even before thay started dating. When Fany and Khun confirmed to be dating, I was not shock anymore. I read some fanfics and I like the couple also. I even told my friend that Girls Generation only date best people. But wih this news, I am really upset. I don't mean to offend someone but this is my opinion.  I'm really disappointed with Taeyeon's recklessness. I never expect this from her. She was like the most careful member and I thought that if ever she will date someone, it'll be a big star like her. I am not saying that EXO is not bigstars. Of course they are. But let's be honest here, they are still newbies. I really wanted Taengoo to be happy and I can see she's happy now. Last year, she's like a zombie who will just smile if needed. 

I was asked about this things before when I was still new in Asianfanfics. "Will you stil continue writing gtae fanfic even if they don't end up together?"

My answer was, YES! This is just a fanfic. And I'll be more than happy for them if that will happen.

But now I realize why some Khuntoria writer stops writing fanfics, why some Jongyoon, Topyoon, and other Yoona-pairing writer stops writing. I understand now. Though we are happy for our idols, there is this feeling of being uninspired.

So what I wanted to say here is to understand us, GTAE writers if we stop writing fanfics or go to a HIATUS mode. We need inspiration, motivation and imagination. But with what happened, we can't seem to have that. So please understand us. Our gtae heart is hurting right now. 

This news really broke our heart, my heart. But what really broke me is the news of the unexpected ending of SCANDAL. I really don't want that to end. Tht fanfic is soo good. My days are not complete without reading it. I wanted to request kpoponly not to end that fanfic yet. But I understand her. 

I still love Taeyeon. And I will never hate her ever!!! I will never stop being a SONE. 

This is not the end :)

This is just a PAUSE. 

Pause from writing gtae fanfics.

~TheHeartlessVixen~