sigh

http://www.allkpop.com/article/2014/06/chinese-director-guo-jing-ming-hints-at-a-mysterious-future-project-with-kris

 

Maybe it's right that he got different treatment, since he's a chinese/sm afraid he'll go after get a stable career or whatnot.

Maybe it's also right that his contract is to be slave of sm n he had enough of it, maybe it's the truth that he got his human right's being violated, maybe all that speculations are true, who knows, but the truth is still solid and un-shaken-able no matter what the reason/s behind it. 

He left, around a week before their first solo concert, left the remaining 11 who waiting for so long time for the said concert, without the other members even know a thing about it, aren't they all his brothers?

Being the one who leave is hurt, but being the one who left behind is much more hurt.

But what we can say? we r just fans and they said the true fans will always support their idols no matter what, after all, the rice's already became porridge now/indonesian's idiom/no matter how we'll blabber over this, everything's already happened.

I'm upset, angry, but if i put myself in his shoes, maybe i'll flee way faster than him/if all the said rumour over slavery in sm's the truth/, but i'll try my best thus the 'me' who left them behind'll make sure that my eleven brothers know why i have to leave, what my reasons are, how i already thought bout that through n through, over n over, n if that place is really a hell, isn't the right thing to do is ask them to flee w/ him?

How could me just try to save myself while leave them behind even w/out any explanation? 

I'll try my best to be the jtl of h.o.t. who left after success brought at least two of their band mates, their brothers, out of that place which happened to be called as hell by others, or like eric mun of shinwa who gave all of his inheritance/money to 'buy' the name of boy band 'shinwa' and all of their members from sm, or like jyj, after they told the leader n maknae bout their plan, asking them to leave sm together though we all knew how futile their attempt was, or at least like han geng, he wasn't like eric mun who gave all of his money to sm to save his band mates, he  wasn't like jtl or jyj who asked the rest of their band mates to flee from that hell w/ him, but at least he bothered himself to tell his band mates, considered their feeling, considered them as his brothers, hurt his own pride as namja by telling others bout his feeling/for some of you who thought that namja has pride which's forbid them to do such things, but again, tony of h.o.t#now in jtl#, spent his entire life in america before he was debut as h.o.t, yet he still bothered himself to tell others, isn't america the place where the guy always act as tough n cool guy who thinks that namja who share his feelings w/ others is uncool?/. 

I'll flee way faster than my bias but i'll try my hardest to be at least like han geng, uri ga, kajou inikka.

 

Something like this coming from our warm-hearted leader who always cared to his band mates n fans even way more unbelievable.

                         

i love him but i can't deny that this' selfish. i can't deny my own feeling by said that it's ok, it's fine, it's right, well maybe it's/ofc it's, he stands up for his human right for God's sake, see, where’s wrong with it?/ but it's built on/over misery's of others, no, not misery's of us fans, but misery's of his own brothers. Ofc I dare said that they are brothers, b’cos it’s the difference between boyband/girlband in SK over other country in the world. They live together in onedorm or two in suju n exo’s case. Happiness, sadness, loneliness , sickness, bed, bedrooms, clothes, socks, bathrooms, foods, dishes, and all of that things, they share it together, they spend their time mostly w/ their members almost 24/7, in workplaces, dorm, van, practice rooms, etc. the older ones help the younger ones, the younger ones can’t help but be clingy to the elders since no matter  what, they r still kids who pursue their dream after all, the one who can’t even cook volunteers to be the kind brother by cooks for the teens in hunger no matter how tired he is/such as ryewook/ the one who sane enough to care about tidiness bothers himself to do the chores, laundry etc even til to the extend nagging n folding their clothes, even though they are not his brother or whatnot/kyungsoo, xiumin/ n still many more. See, although they were bunch of teens n strangers to one another who forced to live together n share everything in the first place by mere contract n work, but by the end of the day, aren’t this is, what you call family?

That’s why, if one brother decides to go, or changes work as you guys said, it will be way more painful for every member of the said girl/boy group.

 

i hope my disappointment n all that sappy things will be healed by time thus i'll come around to support him just like in old days. keu namja, uri saranganeun leader inikka, keurigu, uriga, idol wa fan-yeoreobundeuri, kajou janayo? n we always bound to forgive our family no matter what they already done. no matter damage they already caused.

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