Warning. Long, almost useless paragraphs of me.

So, today is father's day, isn't it? 

I just feel like typing on some nice and also the bad stuffs about my dad to be honest, but scratch the bad stuffs because I'm not supposed to mention them in Father's day. So, the clock is showing uhm almost 8 PM now and everything in my house is just exactly the same. I don't think anyone remember, or even notice that it's father's day.

Basically, I just want to thank my dad for every single thing that he has done to me. I am so proud of everything he does. He loves to keep everything neat and also clean. Well, since our house has like 5 people living inside, so me and my sisters would always make the house in messy condition (although there is 3 girls and my mom; all the girls are just helplessly over boyish and we are like--- ew) His mood would turn into some really awful one and he would turn into someone really scary when he is in bad mood and saw everything in messy. Everytime he gets mad like that, everyone would be so scared and listened to his words, unless me. Sometimes, I still act like a rebel and then just made his mood even worse. But, guess what? that kind of personality of him is inherited in me, I am like a total him when it comes to personality, really. When I got mad, I would just nag to everyone around me and do everything all by myself, I would try finding even the tiniest mistakes.

Another things that we are alike in personality, haha. We are the super calm persons; I mean, we tend to do everything through our mind or brain first than using our heart. We act rather slow, sometimes, because we think about the best way of solving things. My dad and I are like never panic, we are goddamn too calm even when there's some huge problem, we be like "Panicking won't even help, dude."

So, my dad seems to be like a strict one, but he isn't! He is just like a clown-- or maybe some stupid cute guy. He loves to do some weird things that is quite not normal for someone to do. I swear, I am too used to all my dad weird and cute behaviours that sometimes I tend to act like him too. My close friend (call her Rara) is the one I trust the most, and I rarely tell people things about my ownself, but she's like my other twin who can understand me. She loves to say "You are just as weird as your dad, now I know why you are so weird. It's not you at fault, it is your dad." I laugh everytime she tell me that!

My dad never shows it when he cares for you. I got my back hit on something really hard yesterday and damn, it hurt so much that I couldn't even stand well. The first thing he said was, "is that thing okay? Did you break it?". I looked at him in disbelief and said "Dad, I am aching super hard here, and you only care about that stupid thing?" He laughed and then nodded, before saying "shush, your back can heal but my thing is not going to repair itself." I was so done at my dad.

Yes, my dad is strick, mean, funny and smart. He is probably the reason of why I have huge interest in learning English and well- kinda have better English than most people in my age at my place lmao. Although I am the daughter who got hit the most since young, got ignored the most, but I don't care at all. I study the best from my sisters in family, why you asked? I am so poor of attention so I need to get good grades so he can notice me. I always love it when he pay  attention even just a second on me. Since well, his favorite daughter is my elder sis and my mom's is my youngest sis, it is obvious. But, well, I love them and that's more than enough.

But, I am so sorry to him lately, for like--- since one year ago and until now. He always dream for me to become a doctor. I know and understand that he does it because it is a nice job and you get lots of respect (also money). We kinda have like somehow arguing everytime we have a chat. Why? There is no day for him without mentioning the word "doctor", "medical degree", "university" and those stuffs. I am going to graduate next year, so he has been preparing all his best for me. I am so thankful, but yet sorry. I might be a good and fast learner at all my school lessons (not boasting), but I have no interest in forcing myself to study and become a doctor.

We rarely have a proper talk for a year now, but guess what? Ever since my summer holiday starts, we become even closer now and I even help him washing his car and everything (since my sisters are lazy asses). I am so glad, thanks for everything dad. I love you, and happy father's day.

(I want to type more but lmao this is long as , sorry I was just pouring my feelings out because yeah)

I am sorry that I can't tell him this all, but I just type it out. The skies, ground and I know about my love for him, it's all that matter.