Sigh. I don't know where to start, I don't know what to say. I don't even know how exactly I feel. But these days I've been crying endlessly and it isn't my style. I'm this kind of person who's the 'happy-go-lucky' type. I'm not weak. When I wanted to say something I'll say it without thinking what others will say. As well as when I wanted to do something I'll do it, no matter what the result would be. But now, I don't know how to talk the way I used to say things, I stop acting the old me. And I feel so weak than I ever. I hate it, I hate this. I'm sick and tired of everything. I'm not giving up this kind of life, I'm just tired living like this.