my complaints // read at your own risk (long)

i have a lot of complaints in life;;



**welcome to my ranting blog. i applaud you if you read all of what i wrote, but i know that you pretty much won't. that's your choice, though.



// so i have this insecurity... i know that i'm still young and all, so i'm still sensitive. i'm at the age of going under 'puberty', so i think that's pretty much the reason for my sensitivity (?). the thing is, sometimes i really don't feel like the people around me love me, you know? the kind of feeling that you just wanna tear up because of that? no? no? okay no. maybe i'm the only one. cx because they don't give you much love and they don't show it; like sometimes they ignore you and i just -- ugh ;A; but FYI i'm still not crying. sooooo let me share you my story for tonight. my aunts came back from their hometown (we live far from each other) to celebrate my grandmother and father's birthday tomorrow. she came tonight, and i felt like she wasn't paying attention to my words (because i liked talking to her; she's my aunt and ofc i miss her too), i mean, she looked elsewhere and didn't reply at all. she talked to my sister but she didn't talk to me, and i just feel like she doesn't like me, aight? she never did that to me b4 though, and lyk my feelings are really stirred up. i ask myself if there's something wrong with me, but i cant find any. i was acting the same as before, so i dont really get it. /scratches my head/



and a different complaint again, i had my first day of being a sophomore in high school today. am i supposed to cheer or something. ;A; my day was bad, actually. i met up with my friends, talked to them and had fun, but in my classroom starts all the disappointment. so, i was assigned to this classroom where there were a LOT - and i mean a WHOLE LOT - of mosquitoes around, and i didnt put on some 'preventing mosquitoe' lotion (idk what you call that tbh), because i never knew we would stay in a classroom with biting insects. AND we were the last ones to go inside the classroom, so now we were left with the 'leftover' seats at the back. me and my friends (2 of them actually) sat there, and mosquitoes from below our chairs suddenly attacked us. miraculously, i only had one bite, so i'm really thankful omf. and my classmates actually, i'm not really close with them so it was awkward cuz they were all getting along well while me and my friends were only at the back; looking around AND looking awkward -.- and worse - my eyes are weak and i was at the freaking BACK. i couldn't see the schedule ._. it's so sadddddddddddd and the weather was gloomy ;A: so basically my first day as a sophie was horrible. but i guess..... i would adjust... T^T



my little brother is a monster tbh. i'm really annoyed sometimes because he is SO bad, like really. he kicks us and rides on our backs (it really hurts because for ONE. he is only three-going-four and TWO. he is 21 kg - FREAKING 21 PPL 21). i love him but he is so bratty. my parents let him off the hook every time and i srsly hate it. he does a lot of things my family hate; but he only keeps laughing. LAUGHING. that's the only thing he does when we get angry at him. so annoying. UGH. he throws us his slippers and he slaps us and yells at us and UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i really hate it. pls pls pls help me find a solution or smt to keep him in place ;A; we are having a lot of trouble with him. he is really annoying. ><



so i'm really sorry that i have many complaints. i'm sure nobody would bother to comment HAHA i'm going to cryy ;A; anyway if you just viewed this, thank you. at least you have a view of my life now. T^T my sensitive feels ;A; i hate it. puberty suuuuuuuuucks 3

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milaus #1
im going through the same puberty thing
but you know, im kinda just ignoring it now?
its actually not that bad once you think about it
like about the people who actually care

im gonna be honest that's all i read bc you know
that im a lazy mothertrucker but bae ily ♥
kelly-elly #2
Brah, the puberty thing, TOTALLY I get you. Like finally I'm getting bewbs and it's just asdfghjkl; xD

I went through that part where people ignore me especially with my family. When I was a kid, I was painfully shy. Like hiding underneath a table & reaching under the cloth to get my presents at my BIRTHDAY. Just TERRIBLE! Now the only problem I have is shutting up xD ANYWAY! I hate it when I'm talking to someone and they are just not paying attention to me. My mom does this to me at times but I understand since she was born in a different country than America. She tells me "she's still listening without looking at me when I talk." But whenever she starts talking to my sister if I'm still talking, I will honestly tell her "Mom, that's not right. I don't like how you or my sister interrupt me when I'm talking. I respect you guys & I don't do it, I would appreciate the same thing." It's like, I have to be FRIGGIN BLUNT :( But what I suggest is that maybe a bit of communication with people or tell them how you feel :D

I just finished my sophmore year and let me tell you, I hated it. BUT it was better than freshmen year! Idk why I just did not enjoy it coz well, it's school & college is not that far away >_< But I still had some good times! What I did was: Focus on my grades / study because that's the most important, AVOID drama (that's a big one!), and don't worry about boys & relationships and all that stuff. Why? Coz will a boy get you into a college? NO! That was my motto xD But hey if that crush & you share mutual feelings, I say go for it! :D (My bestfriend & her boyfriend stayed together the whole year so those things can work out!)

You brother - tell your parents and the bro. Confronting his attitude with them will at least do SOMETHING.

I know, life is a pain in the >_< But hey, apparently "LIFE GETS BETTER" - I'm still waiting for that when I'm uber rich & living in a Bill Gates type of mansion xD Hey, we gotta let out our problems sometimes! :D
Lairappie #3
uhm
i'm still going under puberty so
i seriously understand what you feel
i feel like the most hopeless person (and my parents are on the verge of separating but meh they're trying to mend stuff atm)
and my sister's actually really distant from me and i just split up with my 9 year long best friend. it's ugh frustrating and depressing and all.
but you know, i really think you shouldn't let this bother you so much. you should try and be happy for your own sake and show everyone that you're happy.
and as for your classmates, when i was a sophomore i was like a shadow (lol seriously) but then after weeks, we were like friends since forever. seriously.

don't give up, okay? <3 i'm sorry for suddenly commenting orz ijust can't help talking to people who feels the same way i felt before so yup. <3
(but real talk here, YOU'RE JUST A SOPHOMORE? ;A; <3)
madz67 #4
Oh, yes, what you said about puberty. I thought of the same thing before. I was on the stage of confusion and disbelief. eoe There are times that people, even my family and friends don't listen to me so, I just tend to laugh it off, but after a while, I start thinking about it again. It doesn't feel good because it only made me feel bad for myself.
You should use insect repellent the next time. The mosquitoes may be as mean as some of your classmates. Kidding. Lol. Try talking to them the next time you go to school. Enjoy your sophomore year. Look out and there are so many things that may happen in your life.

Argh. I'm wishing for a brother. <3 hihihi. Talk to him. Tell him your complaint and make him understand you. Is he hurting you a lot? ; A; take care.

Hello! It's alright <3 enjoy and live life <3
monggji #5
Omg I feel the same way too. I hated it when my older brothers slaps my forehead and it really really hurts T.T maybe because I'm their lil sis they want to play with me but it hurt me.
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