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오랜만이다 여러분^^ 잘지네?

okay, first of all, to my readers & subscribers,

*does a 90 degrees bow*

정말 죄송합니다​. ㅠㅠ  

I want to say sorry first because yes, I haven't updated any of my stories for a while now even though sometimes I'm online here (well maybe most of the time because I don't really log out of this website lol). I know I'm at fault but please hear me out first.

In the past few months, I have been undergoing some serious series of reflection about which path to choose for my future career. I'm already a degree holder (I graduated last March) so I'm at that point of choosing a permanent career in line with my course(I'm a Finance major) but honestly I don't wanna go that career path since I was never really fond of numbers.

I know I should have talked about it before with my mom when we were choosing my course to take up in college (actually, she and I didn't say no). I wasn't bothered about it at first since I haven't really decided on what I wanted to do with my life so I just went with it thinking that maybe I would do good and be happy in that field. But I was wrong. I was so, SO wrong.

Since I was a kid, I have been attracted to Creative Arts. I love music, making songs and poems, singing and performing. I've always wanted to learn how to play instruments but unfortunately I was a timid child. I never voiced out anything I want to do and also because my mom and I were never close. We don't talk to each other and I thought she was playing favorites, it's always been my sister. She didn't know what I love doing. She only knew that I'm good at studying because that's what she sees in my report cards. And so yea, I gave up my love for Arts, maybe because I was also too intimidated by my sister, I thought she's better than me in that field and my mom supports her. Since then, I never really knew what I wanted to become in the future. I got lost (but I didn't rebel against my parents, I continued being the quiet, modest kid but yes I was SO lost.)

It wasn't really until highschool that we started talking but of course she still doesn't know that I love arts (because yes, I was still timid) so when I was applying for universities, she made me pursue Finance because she thought maybe working in an office would suit me. Anyway, this and that happened through the years (won't elaborate much since its too personal) more drama came into our boring, sheltered lives and turned it upside down. We got a terrible shock but it made us open our minds, eyes and hearts.

Life hit me hard and I just woke up knowing what I really want to do with my life (this is where Kpop plays the biggest part, especially EXO, yes I was SO inspired by them that's why they are so close to my heart). I gained courage, became independent but as it was already the last semester of my senior year in college I decided to finish school with the same major and poof! It became Koko Krunch! (Nah just kidding LOL) 

Anyways my mom now knows where my passion really lies (Creative Arts! Including KPOP and my loving of the Korean culture) and she told me she's more than willing to support me in whatever I want to pursue as long as I'm happy with it:) So right now I'm picking up the dream I abandoned long ago (because I was one timid and insecure child with zero level of self confidence back then) and starting all over but this time my mom will just be guiding me in my decisions and I'm not afraid anymore to pursue my dreams.^^ we agreed that I will be studying again (yey!)~ this time with the course that I myself have chosen and where else? of course where Creative Arts is widely accepted and encouraged to be pursued! :) it maybe a school far away from home but it is in the country so close to our hearts:) (yes, our hearts *winks* and no, I won't stalk our oppadeul while I'm there! Okay maybe sometimes but not most of the time, I have to study! LOL and because there's only little chance to see them anyway. I know because I've been there for two weeks and I never really saw any of them though we went to places they usually go ㅠㅠ)

And since I'm now over that dramatic phase of my life, my emotional health is also going back to normal, I have decided to rewrite AIWY, maybe change a few in the story line and continue updating it with my other stories!^^ I will really try to update all of them tho currently there are 3 unfinished stories. I'm really sorry that I can't promise you faster updates because I am also preparing for my goals (and exams and auditions) but I hope you guys still continue supporting all of them and I will do my utmost best in writing to deliver to you awesome stories:)

Thank you for reading until the end~

I wish you all the luck in your own future endeavors and may you be happy in the path that you will choose^^

Till then,

This has been Cammie <3

14/06/10