So, when I finally ventured downstairs today, I logged onto AFF and discovered it was NATIONAL BEST FRIENDS DAY. And I was like omfg, why did no one tell me?? DDD:

I’ve made many good friends here on AFF, and I would like to take the time to thank them all. I can’t do every single one of them personally, but I do have a few special mentions (and I hope they don’t kick my for it lmao).

I’m not a very mushy person, to be honest, but I will try my best to show you guys I can be sensitive lol.

[warning: long post. special mentions to Taemintatee, MyStarryNight, hyunsing, and HallyuFairy]

date: 08-06-2014

First person~

Taemintatee- This is probably the last thing you’re expecting to read (but I hope you do xD), because I’ve worked hard on my speech lolz.

I just wanted to wish you a happy international best friends day. I know we’ve only been talking for a little while, and it may seem strange that I’m officially tagging you in a blog post lmao, but you’re a pretty cool chick, and I enjoy talking to you.

I’m glad you opened up to me (because I’m pretty bat crazy and annoying), and in turn, I’m glad I could open up to you.

Thank you for telling me about your dreams and desires, and thank you for allowing me to vent about my own situation to show you I understand how you feel.  I really hope y-name will have his eyes opened, and I hope everything works out for the better between the two of you. <3

I also want to cheer you on as you start a new year of schooling, because I know how awful and intimidating it can seem. I like how you’re to-the-point and sassy, and how you know exactly what you want. I hope only the best for you in everything you do, aye? Be who you want to be and never let anyone dictate otherwise, because you will do great things! Don’t worry about the self-confidence thing, I’ve gone 18 years suffering from the lack of it. You seem to have a plan and determination, so I can already say you’ve faaaaar surpassed me in that department (let me in on some of your secrets, okay? /shot lol)

And thanks for sitting through me story as well! You’re a great listener, and you make me laugh ahaha. If you ever need to talk to me about anything, don’t hesitate to blow up my message box yo.

By the way, it was fun talking about the male species and their so called peacock syndrome, definitely something we can both attest to, and our love for various hair colours as well xD.

I also hope that your aspiration to become an entertainer pans out, whether you decide to be a dancer, singer, rapper, or juggler (sorry, couldn’t resist lol). I know getting into a company is hard (and I repeat, stay away from SM yo lol) but I know someone like you can get recognized.

AND DON’T GET ME STARTED ON OUR SHARED INTERESTS. So many things to talk about lmfao. I haven’t found anyone else on here that likes Anime yet, so I’m glad I could spaz about it with you lol.

Let’s work hard to become fluent in a million different languages xD since we both think being a linguist is cool.

I hope I haven’t creeped you out by doing this, but I had some extra time and thought, why not?

And I hope you’re not mad at me for posting this lol. I made sure not to go into details or say your name cuz like, I don’t know how comfortable you are with this ^^

NOW ONTO THE NEXT PERSON~

MyStarryNight- OMFG, where do I even begin dongsaeng?

You’re so sweet! You’re so 4D, I swear xD We could be talking about life one moment, and then the next we’re talking about starting a spaghetti war. I love waking up to your inboxes and comments replies, cuz they make my day. You’re funny and lovable, and I want to take this opportunity to thank you (from the bottom of my heart) for being there for me (and buying me non-existent bubble tea).

I like our fandom talks, and some of the things you say make me laugh to the point of tears. Thank you for sharing the B.A.P babies with me, because I don’t think I could live without them lol.

It’s kind of crazy how different we are from each other. Our tastes in music and our views on things can be completely opposite, but there are also times when we’re completely in sync with each other.

Like, for example, our complete and utter love for rap (and coincidently rappers with gummy smiles mwahahaha)

You always make sure I’m up to date with the latest news on EXO, and you pull me out from underneath my rock to venture out into the real world lol.

You’re sensitive and caring, and when we talk about Kris I can see how much the situation upsets you, and it makes me sad to know that you’re sad.

I try to cheer you up whenever I sense that you may feel bad, but I probably fail at doing so. My job as eonnie is to make you smile, and to take care of you. So if I ever fail in those departments, don’t hesitate to hit. But please make it a light hit, cuz I bruise easily LMFAO.

I always steal your blog posts, and I like how you always let me do that.

You’re wonderful, you know that right? You always compliment me and tell me I’m funny even though I know I’m as funny as a popcorn fart :/

Can I write your name? Would you be weirded out by that? Cuz you have a very pretty name (otl I think all my AFF friends have pretty, feminine names—so opposite from me pmsl).

So, Michelle dongsaengie, I love you (actually, I hate you haha lol jkjk you know how I feel).

I always have fun with you, and whenever I have a bad day I can talk to you and cheer up. I love how our conversations are completely crazy and strange.

Sometimes, all we talk about is our biases. Other times, we talk about bubble tea and Luhan being a princess. AND THEN other times, we’re serious, and talk about things that bother us.

Whenever I have a question, you seem to have the answer lol. I hope you know that you can ask me anything, and I’ll try my best to answer you accordingly.

And LOLOL omg, you send me links to gifs and photos that absolutely make my day. You’re hilarious, really. I’m glad I got the chance to open up and talk to you, because you’re uber jjang and I lurv you for it <3

We get overly emotional together for no reason, and squeal for no reason, and generally fangirl for no reason, but we connect in our own strange way ahahahaha.

I’m happy that I met you, and I hope we remain friends for some time yet ^~^

Much sarang from eonnie-yah <3

ON TO THE NEXT PERSON~

hyunsing- Hannah okay okay. Screams. Otl, I love you. I love talking about everything with you. You were the first friend I made here on AFF, because I was always slinking around in the distance, too scared to actually talk to people.

You dragged me out into the light and held me down while I screamed in pain (you might have laughed while doing it, I’m not too sure xD)

To be honest, I can’t even remember what we first started talking about. But I’m glad I continued to spam you, and I’m glad you continued to spam me! You are truly absoinglutely amazing, and I am so grateful to have you in my life.

You understand me ahaha, and I get to rant to you whenever I want. You’re always and forever helpful, and quite honestly, I don’t know why you even talk to someone like me lmfao.

All I ever do is talk about Sehun’s (because dammit, that’s a nice ) and fangirl about Sehun’s , and maybe make references to Sehun’s .

BUT!

I listen to you do all the same things when it comes to Jongdae’s legs and waist (even though he’s my husband and you shall not touchie him.  FLaiLS).

When we’re on KKT, you never fail to amuse me. You’re hilarious. And when I was too terrified to get into some steamy ficlets about my OTP, you pushed me over the ‘innocence ledge’ and watched me fly away into the sunset.

The way you opened up to me about all those girly things made me feel like we had known each other for a very long time. I hope everything I said in regards to your situation made sense, and I hope that I was able to help you out (even if it was just a little bit).

You’re absolutely stunning (even though you think you aren’t) and I’m incredibly jealous of you. And to be honest, I could probably write an essay about how wonderful you are, but I won’t because I’m lazy and you are quite aware of that lmfao.

I know I ask a lot of questions, but you always answer me. Even when we talk about the PH, you answer truthfully and exquisitely, explaining everything in your cute little voice notes. That’s another thing I’m jealous of, your voice. It’s sooooooo cute asdfghjkl.

And I know you’re out in the world right now, dealing with your own things, unable to converse with me as freely as we used to—but I want you to know that you can honestly tell me anything. I will always be there for you, no matter what.

And if a day comes when you have to leave me behind, whether it’s because you’re too busy to play around with someone who lives oceans away, or you don’t want to speak with me anymore, that’s okay. It’s okay because you helped me out during a time of insecurity (even though you’re not aware of that) and I will be happy to let you go if that is something you wish.

SO yeah, thank you for being an international best friend. My FIRST international best friend (you hold that special title pmsl).

I know I’m insane, and I know I’m annoying, but it’s fun talking to you. And I hope we can be friends for some time yet (since I’m not done talking about Sehun’s ).

LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST~

HallyuFairy- You probably read the last couple of shoutouts and wondered “where am I in this?”

To that I say, “do not fear! I have saved the best for last!”

Everyone that I’ve mentioned has a special place in my heart, but you, Mariella, you are something extraordinary. You have your own separate place. You even have hold the title “long lost sister”, which is something I have never given out before.

It’s amazing how close we’ve become, just by talking here on AFF (mainly about EXO otl /shot). We are so alike in so many ways it literally baffles me. Because, how on earth can there be someone so like you? For some reason though, we exist. No, we coexist. Because wherever you are, and whatever you’re doing, I’m always thinking of you and sending telepathic fighting!s as well ahahaha.

I’m shy and you’re shy.

I’m quiet and you’re quiet.

I’m crazy and you’re crazy.

It takes us a very long time to open up completely, and I know there are many things I want to share with you (and maybe there are many more things you want to share with me?), and I’m working on that because I don’t trust easily.

But you, I trust you completely. I’m really thankful I got to meet you. You may say you’re not funny, but you are! And you’re caring. And you’re lovable. And you’re very relatable.

You always tell me I’m pretty (when you’re obviously the prettier one) and compliment me even when I don’t deserve it (and you always back up your claim by saying Chen agrees with you, and that’s not something I can argue with ahahah).

To be honest, I can’t describe our connection well either. I just know that it’s there, and I don’t know how we’ve ever managed to function in our day to day lives without knowing of each other’s existence before.

I don’t remember a day that’s gone by when I haven’t looked forward to seeing your replies. Our conversations have gotten realllllly long, by the way xD.

We’re craycray yo, and epic too. Our drawn out talks always mirror our 8D-ness ahahaha.

I’ve learned a lot from you too. Things about your homeland, things about life. I’m glad I have the chance to show you strange new English words, because now you explain tagalog words to me in return!

Your English has always been perfect anyways xDDD

I know I ramble on and on a lot. And sometimes I can come across as a little offensive because I’m so inquisitive, but I always have kindness in my heart. Especially when it comes to you, because you’re an angel.

We’re so similar, but we’re still so unique. And like you said, our stories differ. But that doesn’t matter, because our differences bring us closer together. You never fail in cheering me up; you always put a smile on my face (that’s that Park Optimism lol). You give me hope, believe it or not.

When I first started talking to you (although I’m not quite sure how that came about o.o) I was going through some things. My life wasn’t perfect, and still isn’t. I was lonely, and looking for someone who would understand me. I didn’t want someone to cry on, I just wanted someone to talk with. I just wanted someone to fill the hole of insecurity, someone who wouldn’t push for answers, but would let me express myself in my own way.

And I know I don’t tell you much, but I don’t tell a lot of people a lot of things.

You’re the closest person to me, even though we’re not physically together. Oceans separate us, but I still feel like we’re connected.

I like taking breaks from my everyday life to come talk to you on AFF and FB <3. And yeah, I probably am more talkative than Baekkie (maybe even Baekkie and Chanyeolk combined!)

So yeah, you’re my destresser. And I will always be your destresser! Anything you want to talk about, tell me about it!

I think in some ways, God answered my prayers and gave me you. Even if we grow apart, and you have to let go of me, I will always remember you and how you helped me (even if you’re unaware of just how much you lifted me up).

I know school starts tomorrow for you (well, today was probably your first day because of the time difference) and I’m cheering you on! Don’t forget Luhan is waiting for you at home with a cute little pink bow wrapped around his deer antlers lol.

I hope in whatever life we have next, we can meet each other in person. (Neighbours would be awesome! We’d fangirl all day long!)

Aha, I have a Yixing memory too, so I don’t really know how we started talking. Oh wait! OHMYGOD. I think you posted on my wall, asking me if I was ‘flyinglubiks’ on wattpad, because you were a follower. And you said you liked one of my stories.

Speaking of which, I should probably reply to your messages on watty too xDDD

Lol, you may be weird, but so am I. I’m glad I can tag someone to fb posts now who understands the fangirlism within me ahaha.

So yeah, holy , this is too long now. I hope I got across how special you are to me. And I hope you know that I’ll help you out to the best of my abilities. FANGIRLS/BESTFRIENDS/LONG LOST SISTERS UNITE!! Forever and always lol. And someday we’ll marry Chen and Luhan (coughs our ships are sailing omg).

You’re kind, and funny, and beautiful, and we will always be imperfect together. Ahahah, I like it when you call me Jordan. Eonnie makes me feel too old, since you’re not really that much younger than me. IN KOREA WE WILL STALK EXO AND MAKE CHEN AND LUHAN PROPOSE AND THEN WE’LL HAVE WONDERFUL FAMILIES WITH GORGEOUS TROLL-LIKE CHILDREN /SQUEALS.

Kkkkkk you always know what to say to make me feel good. And now chen is starting to sound a lot like you, because you’re teaching him how to take care of me ahaha.

Happy international best friends day yo. I love you! <3

Chen: can we go snuggle now?

Me: no, I have to-

Luhan: I wanna snuggle too!

Me: wait, I’m not-

Chen: you’re done; she understands how much you love me!

Luhan: I need some alone time now, you know.

Me: ….do you see how they treat me? t-t I guess this means I have to end my speech xD

FINAL WORDS:

Now, to everyone I have failed to mention (and to those I have yet to meet and connect with) thank you for being my friend. I hope you have an awesome day filled with friendship ^^